BTOB Preferences

#6: I Miss You

[A/N: If you see any mistakes in my writing, you may comment or message me about it. I don't proofread my work bc it takes hella a long time~]

Minhyuk:

"I miss you," I whisper through the phone, trying to hold back the tears that were filling up my eyes. "I wish I could hug you right now."

"I miss you too, jagiya," he sighs, I could feel his frustrations even though he was miles away. "I wish I could be there with you too."

That's when the first flow of tears started falling onto my cheeks, and onto my pillow. I sniffled, forgetting to hide it from my boyfriend.

"Yah," he said softly, not trying to sound too harsh. "Are you crying?"

"N-no," I said, hoping he would buy it. But who was I kidding?

"I'm not a babo (Y/N)." He says softly. "Why are you crying?"

"I j-just..." I tried to explain, but I could feel my heart beating faster and it was clenching. My heart was actually in pain. "I miss you so much, Minhyuk-a."

The pain that I felt in my heart was only limited to a number of people. I don't often feel this way. But when I do, it feels like the end of the world for me.

"I miss you so much that I can actually feel my heart quenching," I said, holding onto my chest, where my heart was supposed to be. "I can feel it slowly breaking and I don't know what to do. I'm not trying to make you feel bad or anything, babe. I just want to tell you how I feel. And I feel like shit."

I didn't realize that I was sobbing whilst I ranted to my boyfriend. I tried to get my shit together but it only made it worse when he said, "I don't know what to tell you (Y/N). I just want you to know that I'm thankful to have you in my life. I'm thankful to have someone who cares for me like you do."

He pauses for a few moments, but in the background I heard him sniffle. He was in tears too.

"I'm sorry that I can't be with you every second of every day. I'm thankful that you accepted not only my career, but me as a whole. I love you (Y/N). And I miss you. Jeongmal bogeoshipeo."

"Saranghae, Minhyuk." I replied. My tears continued to fall, but there was a smile on my face. "I love you."

Changsub:

After the promotion of "Movie", BTOB's members were all doing their own thing. From solo tracks to Sprite endoresments to musicals, they all did it.

It wasn't different for Changsub too. He was all over the place. One minute he's doing a musical, the next he's performing in Japan. I'm so proud of what he does and I am extremely happy for him. I wonder if he thinks about me like I do for him.

I haven't seen him for three months and I'm getting worried about his health. I noticed that he's getting thinner by the month that passes by, and he said that he was tired of losing weight. He wasn't exercising that much nor was he on a diet. I think that the stress is finally catching up to him. I hope that he took a break once in a while.

I'm not very fond of video calling him too. It makes us miss each other even more than before we called. It makes it harder for the both of us. We just avoid the situation all together. But today, I'm extra gloomy and I don't feel good at all. I really want to hear my boyfriend's laugh. It makes my heart flutter and my stomach gets butterflies. The thought of him laughing alone makes me want to call him.

With all my strength, I got the courage to video call him. I'm desperate to at least see his face. Not only through pictures, but in real time would be lovely.