Unsure

chapter 1

Kierasa life is not as perfect as the other. Even how much stranger and acquaintance said that she have a perfect life, she didn't.

Her parent never really cares about her as they always busy with work. Hardly comes home and when they come, the air is uncomfortable. The tension that her parent make is unbearable.

Cassandra Rose and Leo White, people would call them a perfect couple but they aren't. They hate each other even after all this years. They can't make it happen, they aren't compatible. They are forced to married at 15 and got kids at 16. Thrown in adult world is not something that both of them want. but of course, they did try, for five years, they tried to become a family, but they can't, because at night, those fight become reality. They fight nonstop at night, behind the door so no one can see, oh but one did see.

That is how Kierasa began to drifting apart from her siblings. At the age of 6, when her parent is giving up, they want to send them to their grand family, the Whites. Unfortunately, her grandparent only accept two child and Kierasa decide to let her siblings go.

Angeline and Kieran, both of them hates Kierasa so much that they always glare, well, Angeline that it. Kieran just follow her sister because he grow with her.

Kierasa is a brilliant kid, mature than anyone in her age or thirteen. She knows what's up in her parent room as she had hear it a lot of time. She realise what had happen while her siblings is blind by love.

Kierasa knows, since she was 3, her parent won't be in the same room even for a minutes, and they will if only one of the kids want them both.

Her parent aren't like any other parent that she had see. They don't do kisses and each of their touch look forced.

At the age of 4, father is always busy while mother would make excuse. Cassandra would always act like she is sad and anything when her husband is gone, but Kierasa knows better. Her eyes give it away.

At the age of 5, Kierasa knows that they become apart really fast. While her sibling is still blind by all of the love and gift her parent gives, She knew that this is not going to happen. Her father began to become a workaholic while mom would tell us that they always busy. Leaving us with a babysitter. Sometimes, when they think no one is near, they would fight and Kierasa could only see as her emotion wall is began to build.

At the age of 6, she heard her mother and her father talking about leaving them to father's family but only two can comes. They fight and fight on what should happen and what not.

And that's when Kierasa decide her fates and her siblings'. Kierasa didn't know what would happen in the future, but she knows, if she let her siblings live in this house, they won't feel the love and they would broke.

Oh, how true it is. After Kierasa's sibling is at their grandparent. Her parent become more and more workaholic and at the age of 8, They never use babysitter anymore, because Kierasa is tired of fake attention her babysitter gives.

Years after years, Kierasa wall of emotion is as thick as ices cold, she never let anyone come into her life and she never trust anyone after that.

From 3 days week to 7 days a month, that is how Kierasa's 5 years of living in her parent house see her parent.

At the age of twelve, Kierasa had a lot of achievement but her father didn't notice while her mother give her a brief congratulations.

Her parent is hardly at home now, since she reach her 13. Her mother would come 3 days a month while her father would come 12 times a year. Of course, they still visit her grandparent house, but all the attention is divided to her siblings. Kierasa can live without love.

Kierasa achievement became more and more, getting first place in class since she was 7. Getting first place in story telling, writing, poetry, violin, and piano for 5 years in a row before she decide that it become boring. Singing, dancing, ballet and composing is what she do now, especially skating.

While she didn't skating competitive, she is in her professional field. A lot of sponsor and Coach had been asking by o work with her, but she always declined because if she did this, she afraid, she would be neglecting her school day. Kierasa love skating, it was her world. Her inspiration. Everything she had done, Skating would let her free from those negative emotion. Skating let her do a lot of think at the same time and she love it.

But, its all end when she got into a car crash at 15. Her life died in front of her as her leg broke.  She lost her inspirations. She lost herself but even that is, her father never come to see her.

Everything become worst in her life as her world turn 360°. Her mother having an affair which Kierasa could see since her parent didn't work up, then,  her father admitting that he's gay and want divorce. Well, its not a shocker, really. She can see it all happen. She had once saw her father wank to a gay porn while she slowly back away.

A month before school start, Kierasa's father decide to marry a rich billionaire with 3 kids and because of that, Kierasa and her siblings have to pack everything and start living with them.

"I know this is a big decision Kierasa, but I need you to be with your father. I know he- we always neglecting you, but he need you right now. No one know him more than you. I know that both of you rarely talk, but you always watching him and you understand him. After all, you are matured than most of us. I need you to live with him, three month is fine, if you feel sick being there, you can come to me. Anytime, I'm still your mother. He right now, need help, and only you can help him" Cassandra beg. Kierasa never see her mother beg, and yet, here she is, begging Kierasa to live with her father. Even thought Cassandra and Leo hate each other, but deep inside, Cassandra know, Leo is like a brother to her, and she doesn't want him to fall deeper under the water.

"Okay mom. I will" Kierasa sigh. She had never have a proper talk with her father before. Only occasional greeting, never talk about what's up with their life.

And that's how Kierasa found herself, sitting in one of the plane that going to England with her father and siblings. She really hope everything will be fine.

It's look like she need to built another wall