Phan-《bully》

part. 1~ a new story

~ please don't be to harsh cause this is my first story^^please enjoy! Also I'm not British so sorry if I get anything wrong (not all of this story actually applies to dan and phil, just clarifying that :))

Dan's pov -

It started like any other normal day-

wait...i never have a 'normal' day

...

Let me start over

My name is Daniel howell.

I am 18 years old, single, and lonely

I self harm, and I get abused at home

but nobody ever notices..

But it's okay, I'm used to it

Let me show you my likes and dislikes~

I like: anything pastel, I actually love muse, anime, I love my chemical romance, my fav colors are red and blue, Vegetarian Indian Food, salted caramel ice cream flavored, puns, youtube, amazingphil

I dislike: The Dark, The Supernatural, Moths, Butterflies, Spiders, Being Alone, Trees, The Girl from The Ring, my hobbit hair

Now that I got over my likes and dislikes, let me go into my childhood all the way through right now!

So I was born June 11th, 1991 and I was a fairly happy baby

my mum had just left my dad

And we were struggling in our house and my mom was not having a fun time with keeping up with the bills. we were a happy family...i don't know what happened.

Time skip: to when I was 13

The self harming became a regular thing when I got bullied

I cut with every mistake that I did, every breath I took I thought was a mistake

I would burn myself, bite, and cut

Everyday

And nobody noticed

My mom would ignore me when I tried to tell her what was wrong...but the thing is, I don't know what's wrong

"It's probably just your hormones" my mom said

And I believed her

But I continued to cut, burn, and bite myself

Every now and then my mom would take me sbopping, but she doesn't know I like pastel stuff

She doesn't know I'm gay either

So I try to keep it to myself

But one day

It slipped out...

"HOW DARE YOU!! YOU ABOMINATION. THAT'S WRONG, I'M DISGUSTED"

I ran away crying

But I came back and she acted like nothing happened

Like..she doesn't believe it, that her son. Is gay

Cut

       Cut

                Cut
Bite

Burn

Everyday I do a little

To help my through the pain

Time skip: present

So to this day, I have scars

To this day I still think about it

To this day I still think my mom hates me

But she doesn't

I tell myself that everyday

So I think it's true

I don't live with my mom anymore

She died in a car crash, a long time ago

I live with my dad, he sorta takes good care of me. He feeds me. Provides clothes, and stuff to take care of myself with. But...he just ignores me, like I'm not there. Like I'm invisible.

But I don't blame him

I would do the same to myself

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Hey guys^^ sorry if it's shit. But it's my first story. I'll try to update as soon as possible and if not when I get a chance. All this stuff I made up so it's not associated with Dan or phil at all. I hope you enjoy the first chapter, the next chapter is going to be about Phil's pov. So be prepared:) it's going to be chaotic