You buried me.
In the beginning we seemed to be as close as you could get to perfect.
Even with all the silly little arguments and words said, I was still happy. You were still happy.. at least I thought.
You held my hand and whispered the tiniest love notes in my ear. You said words that not only would stay with me but make some feel whole. I feel in love with you harder then I knew I could or ever would. Everything about you got me addicted. Your best days and even worst days. I needed to hear your voice; weather it was a compliment or a complaint. You're voice was what I needed. You never thought through exactly what you were doing to me, or the effect everything you did had on me. You drew me in. You pulled me closer and closer until I felt like without you I wasn't myself. You had my heart, and I thought I had exchanged it for yours. I gave you my heart and it was as if you put it aside in a broken collection of others who had done the same. I put you before myself but I never came before you. I thought my emotions meant something to you, or even my words. But I harshly learned it was all only words to you. Meaningless words. I fell hard waiting for you to catch me.. and after a while your arms weren't even there reaching for me. They were holding another girl or reaching for something you found more important. I saw you as my drug. There was nothing else to replace you or to make me feel the way you did. But see, you; you didn't feel any of this. While you were busy getting high, I was wiping the tears that clouded my vision. Another thing you never seemed to think through was that.. when I dropped everyone else in my life, I also left every other guy in my past where they were meant to stay. And you became my first love. I knew going into this that I wasn't your first love, I knew this. But I was ready to be your last. Instead you used me until you didn't want me. You tricked me. I told myself I would be fine without you but I still cry every night hoping you ask for me back. You dug a hole so deep, I can't get my self out of it. You not only buried me.. you betrayed me.
