I Keep on Coming Back to You.

1.

Harry

I always had troubles with moving on from Louis, that was something I'd never admit. I had been single for about a year now, and I still have him on my mind. Nick walks into my apartment as he smiles. "Hey Harry!" He says cheerfully as he goes straight to the kitchen. I stand up and sets my laptop down. "Hey Nick, back at my fridge?" I sit down and he nods as I fix my hoodie. "I did a thing Nick..." I mumble and sigh, looking up at him. He stops eating and nods. "What is it mate?" I bite my lip and open my laptop and show the tickets I bought to Louis' concert. "It's tomorrow." His eyes go wide, he sets the chips down. "Are you sure you wanna do this Harry?" He says and looks over where it's gonna be. I nod, and cross my arms. "It's been a year, everyone would have forgotten about me by now." I say trying to convince myself. "Spur of the moment type of thing?" Nick says as he raises a brow at me. I nod and look down. "I-I can't stop thinking about him Nick.." Nick nods and rubs my back. "I know, but Harry you need to let yourself accept that you love him." I stand up and shake my head. "I-I..." I try to object. he sighs, and stands up. "You may think you don't but you do." I groan and shakes my head. "I might just keep working now." he says looking at the clock to see its only 12. He nods, "Call me okay?" I nod and head over to my couch, sitting down. I've been doing online classes to catch up, going to college and all. Nick leaves saying goodbye, and I sigh heavily as I rub my hands over my face. I met Nick in college, we hit it off we became friends instantly. He was there for me through the whole Louis thing, I won't lie when I say i miss Louis. Nick has helped me when Louis wasn't there, He made sure I was okay when I locked myself away from everyone else, after I ended it with Louis. Nick loved Louis and me together, I just couldn't handle all the tabloids. I mean I didn't give Louis a reason either, I find it selfish and I didn't want to face him. I was embarrassed that I couldn't be strong without him. I need to be. "I don't love him. Do I?" I mumble softly, my hands shaking at the thoughts running through my head. I stand and bites my lip as I make tea. I think "What Louis is doing?" I shake my head and sip on my tea. My shift starts soon, I finish up my tea and take myself a quick shower, afterwards I hop out. I towel dry my hair as have a towel around my waist. I get dressed in skinny jeans and a sweater, as usual it's Louis' its an accident I keep telling myself. My mum has been worried about me not getting back out there, she loved Louis. She said he treated me well, was always protective and caring. My mind races with the thoughts, the late night talks, the small sneaky kisses, the hand holding, the late night cuddles, and just Louis. His name roaming my head day in and out, night after night.

He was my thoughts even after all this time, just him. I hate how he was always on my mind, I don't notice I was at the flower shop until Haley. My co-worker came up and took me out of my trance, she chuckles. "You okay there Haz?" I nod and clears my throat as I smile. "Yeah just a lot on my mind as usual." I put on my apron as I put my hair in a bun. "You hair has gotten long Harry." she says as she pokes it. I laugh and nods. "Just didn't want it cut I suppose." I say as I get some of the orders ready to arrange. "Garret here today?" She nods, as she ties a bow around the vase. "He should be here soon to do the deliveries." I nod as I cut the flower stems and arrange them with the others, I turn to Haley. "He still won't stop questioning me about the date." I sigh. "I know but it's been a year Haz." I groan, "But that doesn't mean I wanna go and date him." Haley nods not saying anything, knowing I don't wanna continue the conversation. After a while Garret comes to pick up the flowers, but not without trying to get my number. "Garret..." I groan and shake my head as I head down the isle with seeds as I stock them. "Just stop please, I don't wanna date anyone." He sighs and goes to the truck to deliver the flowers. "Finally." I groan and finish up stocking, I head back to the register. 'This day is gonna be long..' I think to myself.

Louis

I look over at the band mates, my mates, the people I've spent the last two and a half years with, yet he's all that's on my mind. I sigh, Its been a year, a year of battling with myself. The way he smiles, the way his dimples are so visible, his forest green eyes, his chocolate brown curls. I shake my head and Niall sits next to me as he stuffs his face, as usual and I chuckle. "Oi! Watch out Nialler." They have been on the tour bus for 3 hours, on their way to their next performance where they will stay a week. "They say the tickets sold out so quick." Liam says as Niall nods as he grins, I smile. "That's great, our fans are amazing." I say as I stand up, its already 6 as time flies just sitting their with his best mates. The ones who helped me through the worst time of my life, the day I lost him. I look over everyone of them, Niall he was so cuddly and funny, Liam was so protective and strong, Zayn he was a hard head but he was there. Liam rests his hand on my shoulder, "I know what you're thinking Lou, you need to talk to him. Figure out what happened between you two." he says and I nod and sighs. "I will after the tour, I'm going to sleep." I rub my arms and head to the bedroom in the back and shuts the door. My mind races as the year and a half we spent together, replays through his head. I never asked why, I think that's why he didn't tell me, I should've fought for him. I lay down as I call Gemma, I haven't talked to her in a long time. Harry's sister still keeps in contact with her brother. "Louis?" she says softly as I gulp. "Hey Gemma... How's Harry?" I say getting to the point, she sighs. "I don't know Lou, he's not answering me lately. There's a lot on his mind. He's still figuring everything out in his mind." I nod and clears my throat. "I just miss him Gem, I tried to understand what I-.." she cuts me off. "One thing I do know is that it was nothing you did." My breathe gets caught in my throat. "Lou I have to go but I will tell you if something happens okay?" I gasp and nods, forgetting she can't see me. "Uh yeah, bye Gem." she says bye and I set my phone down as I lay my head back, my mind racing onto why. "Why Hazza?" I mumble. My thoughts wear me out as I slowly fall asleep with him on my mind, not knowing is what scares me most. My dreams are filled with Harry like they have been for the last year, his beautiful smile, all of him.

Harry

I sigh just as I walk into my apartment, looking at the clock. It's eight and as I hear my phone ring, seeing Gemma's name and I decline the call and go straight to bed. Tomorrow is the day I see Louis after a year, at 11. "Better sleep." I mumble, I strip and take a quick shower, after I put an alarm on and falls asleep as soon as my face hits the pillow. Louis. That's my mind, all of his movements, personality, looks, smile, and everything. The first time I fell asleep without drying my hair, my nerves are worked up, all because I realize, I love him.