when i saw you for the first time in a month i was so happy my stomach wasn't steady, my thoughts were everywhere and my heart beated faster than when i run. You were the first one i saw when my eyes wondered around to find someone i knew, you were the first person my eyes saw. my smile grew,my heart raced, my eyes wouldn't leave you at all as i walked towards you i saw my family... so i hugged them and said hi first but when i got to you i was nervous just like first day i realized i liked you. i hugged you tightly not wanting to let go.. i didn't want you to go anywhere i didn't want you to leave. i've made so many memories with you everyday that passes a new memory was made with you, my house holds the most memories of you as well as the car. you'd come talk and get along with my parents they loved you, i had so much trust in you to let you in my house to let you get close to my family. i told you all my secrets, all my mistakes, everything i regreted in the past and you left with that.... i gave you all i could and maybe that wasn't enough because i made mistakes too. i wasn't the kindest at times, or understanding and i accept that but i tried to be the best i could everyday for you. i tried to change my flaws but i couldn't change one....i swung both ways and you couldn't accept me as yours if i was like that.. you weren't comfortable with someone like me i wasn't someone you'd want to be with and it hurt but like i told you it will hurt but not forever because life goes on. i won't lie and say i don't miss you or say i regret everything because i don't and i do miss you. i thought we had to good but ig for you it wasn't, how could you be with someone you didn't feel comfortable with that wasn't fair to you.. ig i should of seen it coming knowing how you felt about it but i was scared to tell you and when i did everything did change.. you said you'll only accept me as a friend but not as a lover you weren't okay with that and it hit me deeper than you could ever imagine. i gave up so much and that was my mistake. and i'm sorry i wasn't the one you wanted because i couldn't change what i was, it was too much to ask even for you when you had hope i'd change for you to save our relationship and it did hurt when you asked that because then you really didn't accept me for what i am and will be, but i only wish for the best to come to you and i will always be there to help you up when you feel like falling. i might not be yours but i'll always try to be there to help you, to cheer you up, and make your days because i don't want you to fall like i did, i want you to fly higher than a bird. i only want the best for you like i did when we were together and that will never change. i hope you find someone who will make you happy and be everything you were looking for :) have a nice day
