Falling in love is one of the most dangerous things a person can do. For starters if you fall in love your automatically screwed because everything that falls eventually gets broken. So first and for most don't ever fall in love. Being in love is so much better. Even though it can give you the same outcome. The point of being in love is to find that one person that your meant to be with forever. To wake up next to them everyday and fall asleep next to them every night. To be best friends with that one person that you can tell everything and anything to. To be able to be yourself and never have to worry about being someone or something that your not. That is what being in love should be. I know your wondering or thinking maybe what the hell do I know? To be honest I don't know much about anything except cheerleading but something special has happened to me and that is I have been in love and I have fallen in love with the same person multiple times. I know I'm only 17 years old so it's probably hard to believe that I could have even been in love at all. But the truth is being in love with this person is one of the best and worst things that has ever happened to me. Even though I rarely admit it. He is and still is my first love. Nothing will ever change that. Even though someday I feel like I wish I could. But that's only because I didn't know how to let go. The times I should have I didn't. The times I should have and could have cause at the time he didn't give a damn. I still didn't. Because I was blinded. Blinded by love and hoping that the person I thought I loved would return. And he did. Every-once in a while. But those times got smaller and shorter to the point that the boy I started being in love with turned into the boy I fell in love with. That's what hurt the most. Instead of being in love I was falling in love and we all know what falls will be broken. So that's were I am right now. I'm broken. But I'm slowly healing. I get a bit stronger each day. Sometimes its just by a inch but it's improvement and that's what matters. That's what counts and that's whats going to heal me. That's whats going to make me go out and risk my heart all over again. Until I find that one person that does make me feel like I can be myself no matter what until i meet the person that loves me for me until i meet the person that I am in love with and not falling in love with.
