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So I finally arrived at his house and knocked on his door. He open broed it and he looked not heartbroken. I dropped the items on the floor by accident and he immediately bent down and helped me pick them up.

"Thanks E," I said. 

"No problem." He carried everything inside and I followed.

"Nice place," I said.

"Thanks," he replied. 

"Well the ice cream is gonna melt so do you want Mint Chocolate Chip, rock-"

"MINT! MINT! MINT!" 

"Well okay," he said laughing. He served me Mint and himself some vanilla, got the two bags of chips, and a stack of movies and went to sit next to me on the couch.

"Ew vanilla is plain bro," I stated.

"Whatever bro!" We laughed for a bit until I started to eat the ice cream.

"DVD's or Netflix," he asked.

"Netflix," I declared. He went on his TV and pulled up his Netflix.

"The Office," he asked.  I nodded quickly. I love this show. He grabbed the remote and started to play the show. By the first two minutes we were both laughing our asses off. 

"OH MY GOD I AM GOING TO FUCKING PISS MY PANTS," I yelled. I was wheezing and snorting and laughing while he practically started to cry because I looked like a dumbass. Out of the corner of my eye I saw that he recorded me.

"YOU'RE a piece of shit ETHANNNNN DON'T POST THIS PLEASEEEEEE!"

"Too late," he said laughing. I grabbed a couch cushion and threw it at his face. 

"Ow!" I looked at him and we both stared at each other for a bit and I just stared at him. He looked exactly like Grayson. I guess I didn't really process that until I really looked at him. Just looking at him made me want to cry.

"To be completely honest I came here to try to cheer you up but I think it was me who needs cheering up. I still haven't gone over Gray. I don't know if it is because this was my first relationship or if it is because I feel so betrayed by him. I gave up a friendship for him!" Ethan pulled me into a strong embrace and ran his hands along my spine.

"I mean I didn't feel that zing that you feel when you're in their arms or that warm feeling when you kiss. I feel like I made a mistake. I feel like I pushed away the wrong person." I looked at him and smiled weakly. He pushed me away.

"I think you are still confused about your feelings or you are just wanting to feel something with someone again," he said. When he said that I felt a bang against my heart for some reason.

"Yeah you are probably right." I got up and grabbed my phone and purse. I took my dishes and put them in his sink and he just stood up and stared at me.

"I should go. I have a shoot tomorrow."

"I didn't mean what I said in that way," he said. I just nodded and left. God I am so stupid. So fucking stupid. Why did I do that. I drove to a mini mart and got some booze with a fake ID. Then,  I drove home ready to drown away my sorrows in alcohol. I opened the bottle chugged it down like water. When I finished, I got in bed cried until I fell asleep.

I woke up to knocking on my door and my head hurting like hell. I opened it to see Madison and Jack.