Hey guys I'm sorry to disappoint the one looking for a real update but I feel the need to tell you all a few thing, just in case it affects my writing.
1.School for me starts next Monday and I have been super stressed
2.My parents are yet to buy me or my brother any school supplies; or even care that school starts in less than a week
3.I'm currently studying for my drivers test; which also has me very stressed.
4.I recently lost one of my best friends from the 7the grade (I'm in 10th) due to her grandma saying I'm a "bad influence" on her.(She's not dead just can't talk with me anymore)She wasn't in the right state of mind when this happened to hurt and I often find myself caring more about if she's okay than myself
5.My grandmother might also have to be put into a home for older people due to her anxiety, which in turn gives me anxiety
6.On top of all if this I'm still not fully recovered from my break up. My mother after makes jokes about how I'm "too difficult to love" which in no way helps my current emotional state. I keep trying to pretend to be fine; I seem to always be faking a laugh or a smile. It's just been a pretty bad summer for me all around and I'm just kinda bummed about it.
All of this has taken a very big toll on me. It sucks because I want to put my all in this book but I also care for my mental health. I'll try my best to find the motivation to write. I'm sorry if I have disappointed any of you but you thinking this is a real update.
I'm well aware that most of you won't take the time to read this but if you have thank you. It means a lot if you have because maybe, just maybe, I matter to someone.
I love all of you so much and thank you for 723 reads. Also please remember if you ever need to talk about anything, anything at all, I'm here.
I'm sorry about putting this on a book that is meant to be a very happy place. I just needed to rant to someone.
Live long at prosper panda gang!!🐼🐼
~•there will be an update sometime today I hope. •~
~dani (8/2/17 4:34a.m)
