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Serious update PLS DONT HATE ON ME

Btw I'm at my dads house and I hate it here
I probably won't be updating anything for awhile um I went to the hospital yesterday because I called 911. I called because I was feeling really suicidal and I had cut a little I was going to do more but my mom was calling and I didn't want to do any of that while talking to my mom, I would die of guilt before I had the time to kms.

So I told my mom that I had cut my arms and I was scared to death(Bc this is the first time I've actually told her I've cut, I've done it many times before)  so I listened to her when she told me to call the police so I told them I was scared and didn't feel safe but I told them that I didn't feel safe from myself and then the doctors lied and said it was my dad is why I didn't feel safe. I told the doctors that I didn't feel safe yeah but I never said that when I called. When the police came my dad and my step monster came downstairs and my dad had also brought his gun downstairs with him which he's not supposed to have that so YEET KMS

I told the doctors everything and I didn't lie I swear and later they sent me home saying that I barely scratched myself and I wasn't trying to commit suicide which I was going to but my dad and his whore said I was only doing it for attention and to get them in trouble but I the only reason they would end of getting in trouble for anything is because they did something wrong ??? So why am I the bad guy for telling the truth ugh idk

I've been cleaning and I stood in the corner for an hour. After the police came my dad told me "nice try, nice try. You're moms not picking you up." And it hurt so bad no one should say that to someone who just was going to attempt suicide. They keep telling me they love and care about me but I don't believe those disgusting prices of shit.

The doctors also told my dad and his girlfriend I want to be a boy and I am beyond pissed  about that. My dad after they mentioned that said "being a boy isn't going to make you happy" I told them I didn't want to be there and they got mad at me and said you're a kid you don't get to choose what you do with your life, I do because I'm your parent. I told them "you're not my family and this isn't my home" so that was great I'm really thinking about ending it just so this can be over Bc I can't handle them it's just too much and it's only been a day since I called 911. 

I also got in trouble because I called my dads whore stupid because she told me everything was my mom and I's fault. She kept telling the doctors "of I think this all happened because her mom went on vacation without her" LIKE BEACH IDC my mom does this thing when my sister and I graduate with good grades we can go anywhere we want in the world and my sister just graduated this year so really I'm not jealous because she earned it. My dads girlfriend kept trying to come up with excuses of how to blame this on my mom she kept telling the doctors that I was fine all day and everything and I was happy until I talked to my mom. But I had cut before even talking to my mom. So ha what and I'm never okay (I promise)

They're more blind than the actual blind

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