The way life is

The thrut

"What's up with Ryan does he not know"josh asked. "No I never told him" I said looking down."Why not"he said looking over to Ryan. He was talking to the girl. "I didn't know if he would stay my friend"I said as I took a gulp of my drink. "Wow he seems to be hitting it off"josh was surprised. I looked up and saw her writing some thing. "Better get that 50 ready"I said with a smile. Ryan got up and walked over to us. "Omg her name is teddy and she was born ind Galway and she gave me her number"Ryan was so happy. Josh gave me the 50 under the table so Ryan couldn't see it. "We are going out tomorrow night"Ryan had the biggest smile on his face. I felt happy for him. "Hey Ciaran u think that there is a girl over the that's been eyeing you"josh said smirking. "Oh ya Ciaran you should try get a date too"Ryan was looking at me. (Oh god how am I going to get out of this)I thought to myself. "Am...I..I'm ok" I said trying not to make eye contact with Ryan. See Ryan was always that one person who could tell something was wrong just by looking at your eyes."Oh come on"Ryan said in a cross tone"you haven't had a girlfriend in years". "What's wrong"Ryan said trying to look at my face. I didn't know what to do. I got up and walked out I got in to the truck. I saw Ryan and josh come out. They walked over to the truck and got in. "Ciaran what's wrong is..is it ....something I did"Ryan said trying to hold back a tear. "What no" I said looking up at him. "Then what is it"Ryan said bringing his head up "you now I hate when someone is sad please just tell me I never kept a secret from you so just tel". "IM GAY OK"I said angrily "I'm gay"I said again but this time more softly.