I just got done cleaning the house and brought the dogs in from their yard outside and was sitting there snapchatting. I remember it was around 11:00 pm when I was playing with our puppy, Xena, she saw me taking snapchats with the front flash on so she came up and licked my face as i was taking a picture and i was about to type "She saw me taking pictures so she came to take some with me" and send it to a boy i met at bible camp last week and then the phone rang and i couldn't get Xena off of me so i pushed her off and when to the house phone and took a brief glance at the caller ID and didn't recognize it, but it was a local number so i picked up and it was my brother. He was crying and just kept crying and saying he's sorry. After he calmed down just a little i finally got him to tell me where he was after him asking if anyone was home. He told me he was at the hospital in Dickinson and he just started cry again after i asked why. I gave him a minute and asked again and he told me "Mara, I'm so sorry. I tried to kill myself." and a wave of shock just hit me while he started to cry more and then i asked him how and what all happened and if he was okay. He told me with rat poison and that he's okay now. Someone knew what he was going to do so they called the cops and had him arrested at the store where he was going to buy the poison. I told David that i'll be there within the hour. My dad went out to eat with some people for work and my mom was out of state for a funeral in Arizona. So as soon as i hung up with my brother i had my dad's number dialed on my cellphone already and called him. He was just about to get on the interstate to head home. At this point it was 11:32 and i was crying my eyes out. When i told him what had happened he had the person who was driving go to the hospital right away and told me that Darko was going to come pick me up. Darko is a family friend that works with my dad. I didn't move from the floor where i was sitting for about seven minutes. I was screaming and crying. At first i was so mad and scream "God no! Why would this happen?" and as soon as i said that i realized that there was no reason to be mad. My brother wasn't dead and he was okay. I started to say "God thank you, thank you so much." repeatedly. After i got the courage to stand up i put Xena in her kennel, since if she is left out she'll tear up anything she can, and went to my room to get my shoes on. I was sitting there drinking water when i thought that i should write down some bible verses. So i got my art book from school, it was just a small sketch book, and wrote down the verses, Isaiah 41:10, "So do not fear, for i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God. i will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous right hand". Jeremiah 29:11, "For i know the plans i have for you" declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". John 10:10, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; i have come that they may have life, and have it to the full". Darko rang the doorbell as soon as i was about to write another verse but i ripped the page out folded it quickly and put my pink crocs on and grabbed my phone and ran to the door and got in his pickup. He kept conversation with me the whole ride there and when we got there i ran up to the receptionist and asked if i could go see him. She called the people and they said not right now and to have a seat. I looked around for my dad and didn't see him anywhere. A while later my dad came and said my name. Darko just went out to go get me a water from the pickup when he said my name. My dad was already back there with my brother. So when i got back there and i saw him i smiled and started to cry and went and sat on his bed and hugged him. It was probably the longest hug i have ever gave him. We sat there and exchanged a few words. The first thing i told him was "You're so lucky i can't beat your ass." he laughed a little at that. When we were about to leave my dad asked me to pray for him and i prayed that what ever demon is in his life and the devil to get out and for God to come into his life and for not just his physical health to get better but his mental and spiritual health to get healed completely. And as my dad stepped back i gave David another hug and handed him the piece of paper and my dad asked what was that and i just told him something because i didn't want him to know what it was because i felt stupid for giving it to him so my dad reached for it and i tried to push it out of his hands and back into David's. When my dad looked at it i told him it's just some verses i want him to look at and my dad just smiled and kinda laughed. He told my brother "Your sister is a very special young lady, you know that. And i want you to look at these. I saw a stack of bibles out there, look at them here or at the institute. But i want you to look at them and learn from them." and i hugged him again and whispered "Think about Mali please" and that's when we left and said i love you and we'll see you soon. We talked to the nurses at the desk before we left and my dad gave them his contact information then we left.
