L.O.V.E (2): Take My Hand

Chapter 11

1st of February 2015

LA

It's been a couple of weeks since my Dad incident. I don't know why I still call him Dad. I still have a small feeling in my heart that he could change but then I remember what he did to me and what he did to Justin and the feeling goes away.

Justin is touring the last part of his believe tour. Then he has the believe movie to edit and then he is having a break from being in spotlight, like the same as me to spend some time getting used to getting married and starting a new life together. After I shot my film, I've been with lots of meetings with the director editing and getting the feel of the film right. We have been stuck at the beginning of the film to introduce my story. We don't know what to do. On May 1st the premiere of my film is happening, Justin will be coming and will have finished his tour 2 months prior to that date.

It's the early morning and Justin has been away a week after the Dad incident. I miss him so much, but in a couple of months we'll be married and we can enjoy our time together. I've been scared for falling in  love and I've been scared losing my love because of the insecurities I've held since I was a little girl. Justin has helped those insecurities but I still have them especially when my Dad comes back. He was there for a week after it happened comforting me and helping me.

*FLASHBACK*

A day after the accident. My mind was boggling with flashbacks of the incident. My mind keep replaying the faces of my Dad, the look of Justin's face. what could have happened? what actually happened? what would have happened if Justin didn't come? what would have happened if you lost Justin?

"Hey babe... What are you doing up? It's like 3am"

"I'm sorry Jay.... Go back to sleep. I'm alright. I just have a lot on my mind I guess"

"Do you want to talk about it?"

I nodded, as Justin wrapped his strong arms around my delicate small body and coaxed me inside in the warm. He pulled me towards the bed where I slept previously and thought of my Dad.

"Jay.... I don't want to overload you with my problems"

"Hey... baby remember what we said before... that we were going to talk to each other. We've got to work together. Remember what we promised each other.... we said we'd die together and I intend on keeping that and that means I have to be here regardless of the storm or the rain or even the sunshine"

"Jay.... I'm scared"

"Babe... he's not coming anywhere near you, he's in jail and he won't be coming out anytime soon"

"No.... I know that... It's just the thought that I could have lost you that day and I knew it would have been my fault and it is still fault that all of this has happened"  I exclaimed feeling tears that have built up start to flood down my cheeks.

"Jay... I don't want to loose you. and to think it would have been my fault... I'd-" My breathing then hitched and my cries became harder. I could feel Justin's arms pull me into his lap and he softly stroked my hands and waist.

"Hey baby... calm down.... I don't like to see you crying" Justin replied as he stroked me again, leaving multiple kisses around the right side of my cheek and forehead.

"Baby... look you're not gonna ever loose me. I promised you and I'm promising you again that nothing could ever stop me from loving you and staying with you forever. Even your dad couldn't and every other obstacle we've overcome hasn't pulled us apart"