Honestly, I've never fit in with the world. I was always alone somehow. I always deal with things differently in a way. And I've forgotten what it's like to be happy again. I can't listen to those hopeful cheery songs anymore. It gets too much. Back when I was younger, it was easy. I didn't know what actual pain was. I didn't know what it felt like to be betrayed by so many people. It's been too long. I wanna go back to when I was young. At some point I started looking to the ground more than to the sky. It even gets hard to breath now. I hold out my hand for someone to help me but nobody ever holds it.
I also at one point got scared of people's eyes. I got sick of crying so I tried smiling but No-one recognizes me. That might sound a bit confusing but I was never good with words. Or friends. Or people. Or anything in general...
But then at the end of the day, I'll always be a coward who acts tough in front of people to hide my scars. I just feel like saying goodbye to everything now. I hope I'll be able to close my eyes without any regrets...
~Your Dying Butterfly 🦋
