Don't Let Go (A Depressed Balloon X Suicase Story)

The Past(Introduction)

Balloon's P.O.V.

   My past... It's different than everyone else's but, no one would understand me. They all keep on bullying me... Telling me that my life should of had been gone since Season 1. I'm not giving up any hope yet. I am lucky to exactly have hope with me. My hope is almost the exact thing that keeps me trying to live and not commit suicide at the moment. Though the only be honest my hope doesn't show a lot. I wish she does but she doesn't. Also yes you heard me right my hope is a she yet, The only she who actually cares for me.

   Every single day I think about trying to commit suicide yet it never does happen. Because if she finds out she'll be devastated. I mean really really devastated like she'll brake now crying her eyes out. I don't really like it when she cries because it's either that Nickel treated her badly or Baseball is yelling at her. She basically doesn't like her alliance a lot since they use her a lot on challenges but, they also yell at her a lot for stuff she bareilly even does. Which half of  my own team bullies me. HALF OF MY STINKING TEAM!!!!! It's unbelievable that my own team does this to me.

   Right now I'm staying in my room. I don't wanna deal with the drama that goes on everyday. I hear Knife and Mic yelling at each other, Baseball is probably with nickel off somewhere, and Suitcase is probably trying to relax. I have actually locked myself in my room now. Nobody really comes over any way. I also barley even eat so that's one thing when ever suitcase comes over she always gets worried.

   Well since you guys actually want to stay with me I'll tell you my past. I've been meaning to tell suitcase but, I don't think she'll get it. After all she is a soft casket. Besides nobody would want to hear about my past life either way but, I guess I'll still tell you guys.

    Back in my past, I used to have loving parents that card about me. Until I was 5 year old, That was when everything  changed for me... My parents abandoned me in the forest, I had to live there for my life until Mephone 4, OJ, paper, pickle, and many more found me in the forest alone. I was extremely scared at that time because I thought they were going to be extremely rude to me like how a lot people were when they walked by me but, instead they took me in and took care of me.  I felt like I had to be and act like the character who wants to win in season one. I was horrible and rude in season 1 and I regret ever being mean in that season. 

   Even if I am in season two now a lot of people bully me for my season 1 past. They just don't know the head on truth of why my parents left me. Me on the other hand I overheard my parents say a plan two days before I was abounded. They said I was a regret, a messed up someone, someone who is a goner, and someone who should not be in my family name. I was about to cry that night but, I continue to over hear my parents about what they were saying about me. They continue to say some more rude things. I must be forgotten, left alone, and miserable because of what they continue to say about me. 

   Until my dad spoke up and came up with the idea of leaving me in the forest... Forever. He said that was until I forgot who my parents really are in life. He also came up with the idea of dropping me off at the forest two days later. My parents... The ones who I thought love me... Actually hate me in life? I thought I was doing everything to make them happy. Until it hit me like a bullet in my little heart. My parents never loved me...I was there slave all this time and now they deiced to get rid of me once and for all. Hopping that I would die in the forest because of starvation. 

   I thought these people loved me with all there heart...But, turns out they hated me with all of there guts..I then heard something shocking from my mom. My mom told my dad that she regrets having me... I just ran where ever I was overhearing then from to my bedroom and I cried myself to sleep that night. (A/N Poor smol helium child)  I cried myself to sleep ever since then, keeping the memory in my heart.

   ...Sure my past may be deep but, I've tried to lie to others about it. That's when I remembered what nickel said to me once. "Nobody will ever love you ever!!!"  I realized something from that, Suitcase will never love me not for who I am nothing. I deiced that tonight I stop crying myself to sleep. It was time for me to start taking matters into my own hand and to stop crying like a wimp like nickel said I was.

I stood up and got off of my bed and I walked towards the bathroom. I looked around in the drawers when suddenly I saw two things I could use.... A Pair of Scissors and A Razor Blade. I really don't want to do this but, I have to if I would stop acting like a wimp. I tried to figure out which one to choose. I deiced to choose the scissors so, I opened them up to have the blade showing and I held out my writs in front of me. I put one of the blades on my arm... Well here goes nothing.

One swipe...

For thinking that I had wonderful parents

Second Swipe...

For me being rude to people

Third swipe...

For my actions in Season 1

I dropped the scissors feeling pain in my wrist, I quickly looked around the bathroom for bandages. Luckily I found some and I quickly wrapped them around my wrist which was now bleeding from the cuts that I did. Looking at myself in the mirror I see something different... I see me with my bandaged wrist. I know that I won't look different now that I tried this method..

I just hope I can keep it away from suitcase....

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Hey guys, Melody/Mandy here. I hoped that you guys enjoyed this chapter I'm really excited to release it(when you guys read this it will be out already). So yeah! I did do a little doodle for the chapter. Which is at the top of chapter if you would like to see it =3 If you guys can't get to it here's a better view

So, Yeah! I hope you guys like this chapter! I'll see you guys in the next one

~Melody/Mandy