Believe Me, It Ain't Easy.

Just a Phase / Cease to Be

Just a phase / Cease to Be  

One second you were here

And then you're not

All I have are my tears

People say time moves on 

Life won't wait for you

Now I'm trapped inside this nightmare

And can't get out

Can't run away from this now

There goes reality catching up with me

No matter how much I run 

Everything reminds me of you

The grim in the churchyard 

Thoughts go away, but never far

Even the marble granite of the tombstone

And the words engraved make me mourn

A black cloud surrounds me

Can't someone help? I can't see

I've lost my way, been led astray

I've become what I said I'd never be

Depression seeps into me

Constricts my stomach, I can't breathe

Someway my heart still beats

I'm getting better somehow

It's been a year, but I still wish you were with me now

The therapist says it's just a phase

It's just a phase, that I'll be okay

But does he know the pain I'm going through?

How every sad song on the radio

Reminds me strongly of you?

Today is the anniversary

Of the day you ceased to be

Of the day reality became a knife to me

I came up to the cemetary

With a boquet of daisies

I sat down and cried for a while

Do you know how much energy it takes just to smile?

The therapist says I'm getting worse

How? I was just making so much progress!

All this newfound pressure is adding to my stress

Maybe I'm just not cut out for this

What was I thinking?

I can't deal with all this 

Misery business

Mother sat me down to talk today

At first I thought I knew what she'd say

But instead, she confessed that she felt the exact same way

I felt confused, how could she hide it so well?

Then I got angry. I'm weak. I needed a therapist's help. 

But mother assured me that it would be okay

That we'd get through it together day-by-day

I'm starting to improve

With mother's help, I know that I can survive without you

It's been a month, 

It's been a year

Each day goes by with less and less tears 

Remember, don't mourn

It's one less family torn

Another oen of your anniversaries

In the grim-guarded cemetary

I bring another boquet of daisies

Tears well up in my eyes

But I know better not to cry

Sometimes I wonder why you had to die

But then fate never answers questions why

I am now completely healed 

Everyone had been so supportive of how I feel

No more tricks up the sleeve

Karma is now done with me

I can finally see

That you haven't abandoned me 

You had never ceased to be

You live on in my heart

You live on in my mind

You live on in me

In everybody

We will carry on your memory

Don't worry, 

You will never cease to be.