The Favor (Urban)

Rough Stuff Part 2

CORIHN POV

   "What you mean" I asked dumbfounded. "This the nigga you went to go meet that day" he said looking at me like I was stupid. Before I could even respond he spoke again. "... But I see you never made it to see him.... so who'd you go see" he said standing over me in a threatening position. "Boy it don't matter who I went to go see so you can stop standing over me like you gone whoop my ass about it" I said getting in defense mode. I saw him getting mad but I truly in a good mood and didn't feel like arguing. "Look.. I'm at the point of not caring. I don't feel like arguing" I say in defeat. "Stop doing stupid shit then" he says.

I decided to walk away before I said something that would start an argument. When I opened the door everybody looked funny like they had been being nosy. Poor uncle Justin was the worst at 'acting natural' for one I hit him with the door coming in and his pose was just awkward. "Y'all nosy as fuckkkkkk" I said laughing. "Ain't they niece" uncle just says wrapping his arm around me. "You too g ball, don't try to play it off" I say pushing him off me. " after I heard about the mayweather fight y'all had I had to see thi-" he stops in his tracks and tried to put on his 'natural' pose because Damarco walked in. "Nephewwwwww. You good.... no concussion " he says being phony and funny. "You trying to be funny. Let's not forget how you got jumped by a pregnant mother and daughter duo once before" my dad says busting his bubble. Riley and Mavanie both looked shocked. "On what" Mav said almost laughing. "Beat the breaks off him. I had to step in and break it up. His lips was so fat he couldn't talk for a week" my dad says crying laughing. "Ohhhh I hope you remember the time Kee went upside your head for coming back from the store with the wrong flavored ice cream" uncle Justin says. "Players fuck up" my dad says still laughing. "Woooowwwww y'all wild" Riley say laughing. "Aye look, my parents on their way" Damarco says.

I didn't really feel like being bothered with my "in law" so I decided to hold my comments and walk upstairs. I already know Damarco crybaby self ran and told his mom I was with another dude and she gone come in here trying to coach me into having sex with her son. She act like that's going to solve all of our problems. This relationship is forced and super dysfunctional... nothing sex can fix. I just wish everything could just be normal. Being that I'm forced into this I feel like I'm pushing Damarco away on purpose. Getting to know him has been fun and he's actually someone I wouldn't mind being with anyway but since I have no choice I fight the relationship.

   My mind was racing a mile a minute. I decided to head to my escape and take a long shower like I always do when I'm stressed. I turned the shower on as hot as I could take and connected my phone to the speaker. I stepped in and immediately sat down. I leaned back resting my head on the wall staring at the cieling. At this point I don't even care if my sew in gets wets. I was deep in thought but I still faintly heard the words of the music...

        " My world it moved so fast today, the past is seems so far away and life squeezes so tight that I can barely breathe ,  and every time I try to be , what someone else has thought of me
So caught up, I wasn't able to achieve

But deep in my heart, the answer it was in me
And I made up my mind to define my own destiny

I look at my environment
And wonder where the fire went
What happened to everything we used to be
I hear so many cry for help
Searching outside of themselves
Now I know his strength is within me And deep in my heart, the answer it was in me
And I made up my mind to define my own destiny "

   The lyrics cut so deep that I had started crying. I felt numb to my core but I stronger than I've been since my whole world shifted. Either my father is going to tell me exactly what is going on and I wan everything or this whole thing is going to come crashing down. I don't know how Marco would feel if I told him fuck him, his family, and this dumb marriage but I'm ready for war.

   I was taken out of my thoughts by a knock on the door. I didn't get up to answer it I just looked. I had been crying and it was foggy so my vision was blurry. Whoever it was invited themselves in. I tried to make out the figure on the glass but I gave up instantly. I don't care about anything right now. I closed my eyes waiting for whoever it was to speak. "Babygirl... you okay" my mom voice muffles through the shower door. "Yeah.. I'm good" I respond. I watch as I see her figure turn towards the door but to my surprise she slides down sitting with her back against the shower. "Girl. I know you like the back of my hand. I can't see you but I can bet money you're in there crying and thinking over life right now. I can't give you an answer to everything but I can assure you there is one. Your father has been protecting you your whole life... he wouldn't put you in a bad situation if it wasn't absolutely necessary. When he told me about everything I cried like hell too. I cursed him out for hours and hours.. hell I even tried to buy plane tickets and get us out the country. Your father of course stopped me and promised everything would fall into place. We even went on vacation and I loved it so much I tried to convince him to let us move there. When he told me no... oooh girl I went upside his head..." she chucked but drifted off a bit. "I... I was so upset with him. How in the hell was he gonna tell me my baby was better off in the heart of all that gang violence than ducked off in Texas.... then later that day when shots went off in the park... two bullets hit the little baby next to you.." she stopped as her voice cracked. I valued tell she was crying. "My heart has been in pieces since that moment, I can't imagine how I'd be if that were you. Baby you've had a target on your back since the day you came into this world... what strange things people would do for money" she said now breaking down. "You gotta do what you gotta do to save yourself , baby. Even if you can't save anybody else... do it for you" she said standing up and wiping her face.

   I cut the shower off and stepped out wrapping my towel around myself. I took one look at my mother and I broke down. She pulled me in her arms and stroked my head. She started to sing in a whisper in my ear as she held me close

        " I wanna be there with you
I really do be missing you
Everything I do is for you
And I really do adore you
You're getting so big now
And you're making me so proud
Cause you are such a star
And you know that you are
So every single little moment
I can't be there to hold your hand
I need for you to know that
I need for you to know that
Anything should happen, anything should happen
Cause anything could, if anything should happen
Know that you'll be alright, know that you'll be alright
Just promise you'll be alright, promise you'll be alright "

   I felt every doubt I had about the situation slipping. I know my mother would never lie to me. This has been my sole support system my whole life. So many years I would talk to her about my father and she would always tell me it was much deeper than the naked eye could see... I never believed her but everything she's said has proved to be true. My father did what he could from a safe distance. I was never poor so my complaints about him never centered around money. I just wanted a father I could go to the dance with.. ask about guys.. I wanted to be daddy's little girl but I'm coming to understand that everything great must wait. You gotta see past the surface.. shits way deeper than it looks....

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Okay sorry I'm so late on updating. I've been having problems with Wattpad 🙄 then the app updated and apple started having that problem with the letter I so I didn't feel like typing the rest of the chapter and having the stupid boxes pop up. Anyway Like, vote, and comment. I really would love to hear what you guys think !