Broken

Chapter 20: Scared of Lonely

The youngest of the two brother's wasn't for sure why he felt the sudden emotion of fear grip his heart one night. He didn't have his lover there because she had her own place to live but that was going to change in a few weeks since she finally agreed to move in with him. He missed everything that he had – that he was given by the blond – once had.

Sitting up in bed, missing the soft fur of Ichijo, he sighed to himself. R.E.M by D'espairs Ray was playing on the speakers he had to pay for since the dock that was once his was gone. Itachi was probably given everything that he once had or Naruto just gave it away to others because they had something to do with him. He wasn't sure.

The last time he talked to that blond was that day when he threw that punch at him. Sasuke wasn't sure what came over him that day but he just snapped for some reason. Maybe it seemed like Naruto was rubbing it in his face that he was happier with his brother. Who knew the reason behind it? It was the past so he shouldn't worry about it.

He was so pissed about the fact that his nii-san had his blond that he went to erase everything Naruto sent him that day but he couldn't bring himself to. He had all the things that Naruto sent him with a checkmark beside them but he just couldn't push the delete button. Maybe they had too many memories that he cherished.

Getting out of bed, the Uchiha grabbed his laptop with his diploma on the wall – framed – and turned it on, blinding him by the sudden bright light. He knew his uncle was asleep already because he wasn't pacing around the house. Clicking on his e-mail, he looked through every one of the pictures that Naruto sent him.

With each one, he shook his head and felt the tears that he denied to fall gather in his ebony eyes. All the ones of Kyuubi made him want to laugh and cry at the same time. He wasn't going to admit that he missed Naruto aloud because of his uncle. But he did. He missed his blond dearly.

When he took his lover out to get something because she was craving something, it seemed like Naruto was at the supermarket also. Some of the times he saw him he was with Itachi but it didn't matter. He just wanted to apologize and hope that Naruto had it in his heart to forgive a fool like him. He did have it; he forgave a lot of people that hurt him. Should he be no different then?

Closing the laptop's lid, Sasuke bowed his head with the familiar wetness falling from his eyes. This will be the only time he'll cry over the blond he lost. The one he still loves deeply.

Bittersweet Memories - Bullet for my Valentine

How to Deal - Frankie J

Counting the Days - Good Charlotte

All I Ever Wanted - Basshunter

Hopeless - Breaking Benjamin

Love Again - Cascada

Vulnerable - Secondhand Serenade

So Happy I Could Die - Lady Gaga

Summertime - New Kids on the Block

Scared of Lonely - Beyonce