So your friends are grabbing any girl they desire, & they tell them all the sweet and adorable talk they want to hear, not because they love them, but because they want them for their own purposes, none of them is giving love, none of them is giving life. And you stand there wondering why you didn't go for the route they took, it's because it's ugly, no, it's because your heart belongs to someone, & could never gaze at another girl the way you gazed at her. Wait. You just realised something. You haven't heard her voice for months now, which used to be your favourite melody. You miss it. You miss it calling your name. You miss it saying "I love you". But now, it's just toxic, the further you listen or even remember, the longer you're shattered. You want to push her away, but you just keep on pulling her into your life again, or want to that is. Cause you just can't have what you want, she wants you out of her life, but doesn't she realise she used to be yours? Like you must be dead by now, but no, you're not. You're just lifeless, hopeless, dreamless. She gave you a purpose. She gave you a reason to smile everyday, even if it was dramatic. She gave you a reason to live for. Her. You love her. You still do, you don't know why. You beg yourself to stop, but you can't. You beg yourself to stop looking at your chats and photos, but you can't. You beg yourself to stop thinking about her everytime you see affection, but you can't. you beg yourself to stop this torture you're going through, but you just can't have what you want. You can't have it.
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PoetryPour your emotions into something instead of someone. You'll find something to relate to and have relief in here. Afterall, all shattered hearts are the same. Grief has come to an end, thoughts has come to an end.
