"Goddammit shut the fuck up"! I hit the snooze button of the shitty alarm and go back to sleep.
Everything in this world is entirely a piece of crap for me now. I feel like there's no reason to live anymore .
I just wake up for no good reason, follow the same tiring routine and go back to sleep, only to stay awake the whole night bawling my eyes out because of you.
All I can see , all I can remember is you . No matter how hard I try to forget, all I can think of is your charming face, your beautiful eyes, your luscious lips and just everything else there is to you.
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Waking up is a pain in the ass for me these days. Imagine having to move your body from one place to another ,while thinking about the man who played with your feelings.
I can't stop it. I fucking hate you but I can't fucking hate you.
I fucking love you but I can't fucking love you anymore.
Not after what you did to me.
Now, I'm breaking down. I still have strong feelings for you ,you know? I want to crumple these feelings up like they're just tiny shreds of paper and throw them in the trashcan.
But you see , I can't throw them away .
They're fragile. That's the point.
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Finally, I find the energy to get up and go make myself my breakfast.
Alone in this apartment,alone in this world.
Do you know you are the reason why I'm like this,darling?
To my dismay, the coffee machine isn't working anymore. Great.
Another amazing start to another amazing day.
Putting on some reasonable sportive wear, I head out of the door to the local hotspot , " Zeringe Café", to grab a cup of coffee. After sleep, coffee is the only other thing I enjoy these days.
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Opening the door of the little bistro, my eyes scan every little nook and cranny , just wondering if I could spot you.
To my wonder , I do.
But, I see you with her.
The bitch you cheated with me on.
I slam the door shut and head back home. I've had enough of this and I certainly can't take it anymore.
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Heartsore ❤
Teen Fiction"To the girl who feels like she is to blame for her heartbreak, you are not alone". - author From a heartbroken soul's point of view : I started acting fake once you left me to face this cruel world all by myself. I'll show you what I can do.
