Nervous.
Very, very nervous.
These feeling that's consume me are immense and they continue to grow. I am borderline mad, psychotic. Between university, failed driving lessons, job hunting, and home stress, I feel anxiety and panic attacks in the back of my throat constantly. People can't talk to me anymore because I either dissociate or break down. I either lack sympathy and feeling or have too much that it annoys people.
There is, per to say, something or someone there distracting me. This distraction lasted longer than I had previously though, yet that's not a bad thing. It's hard to find attachment to hobbies or interests anymore. Things happen, just gotta push through. He says push through, but I can't really imagine myself being very successful. Communication is very difficult for me, I have always thought that people get bothered at me talking about things due to the fact I've been told to "shut up," or "get over it, you're annoying."
I'll keep trying though, I've gotten better. Even if it's not for myself, I'll try. :)
