Hush. It's just a word right? Maybe not where I've lived my whole life. Maybe not with the people I'm around. Hush is something they tell you when you've finally gotten a reason to voice up for something. Hush. Is something that's kept me away from unleashing my demons. It's something that I'm told when I'm clinging on to my pillow so my tears and voices don't show and aren't heard, when people like me want to talk and let it out or even help somebody. Hush. Just a simple yet complicated word that's forced souls to kill themselves in the dark when it's silent in the middle of the night at the time of ones most vulnerable stage. What a word...it's so bittersweet! So calm yet seems like a storm to the mind. How it makes the tangled wires of your thoughts just vanish without a proper explanation. Hush girl hush. Something I've told myself when my insecurities were like a burden of weights on my chest, like a strike of lightening within my brain stopping time and vision, releasing an ocean like a stream from my eyes. Hush, I say to myself. I Hush myself to say no more. I hush myself to feel no more.
