I can't stay

Entry 1

Dear diary,
I fucked up. We all do, but I don't know how I can fix any of this. He told me he wouldn't tell anyone and guess what. Another bullshit lie. I guess it didn't surprise me.

Everyone in my school now calls me "slutty schmitty". Get it ? My name is Brooklyn schmitt. But call me lyn.

Anyway, we obviously had sex. He was my first though and that's why I didn't want him telling anyone. They don't need to know my business anyway. But you know, it's highschool. Everybody is immature.

I didn't even know joey. I just met him from a friend and it just kinda happened at their house. I was all fucked up, We drank all night . I wish I could just turn back time and redo it all over again. We don't have second chances like that though.

A Rumor was even started that I gave him the clap and it's so fucking ridiculous because how could that even happen when I wasn't even exposed to that. It's crazy sometimes what you hear about yourself .

This all happened two months ago and shit is still flying off the wall. I just need some fucking help before i can't take anymore .