Is This The End (Part 2)

Chapter 2

2 DAYS LATER
Nikki P.O.V
I woke up to be snuggled by and tickled by with hair. What the fuck. I fully opened my eyes and saw it my two angels sleeping soundlessly. But my joy was lost when I remember I had to go to work and see.....him. And so does my daughters. I bet he is snuggling up to Mickie right now. I slowly removed myself from the trio from the trio and went outside and the check the mail and saw something I did not want to see.
To the Mother of Jessica Brianna Cena and Jennifer Alexa Cena we would like to inform you that John Cena is wanting you to pay twelve years of child support. If this is an issue call 234-748-1025.
Nikki: FUCK!!!!! *yells and pants with anger*
THIS FUCKING BASTARD OF A MAN! I stomped to the house and grabbed my phone and dialed John's number.
John: Hello *morning voice*
Nikki: Did you just wake! You Fucking Bastard You are going to make me pay fucking child support!
John: Yes you should not have taken them away from me! I'm their father!
Nikki: And I'm their mother you should not fucking screwed! Who pushed them out of they vgg I did I was their first home they belong with me
John: Not without a say
Nikki: Well how are you going to make me pay child support when we haven't even went to court yet! We are not even divorced yet!
John: Do you think I want my kids only around their mother
Nikki: What is wrong with them being around me John why are doing this to me *tears*
John: Can we talk about this after work
Nikki: I'm not so sure because right now you are the last thing I want to see *hold in tears with a cracky voice*
John: Look I dont want to go threw this either but just for the sake of our kids
Nikki: I'll think about it *hangs up*
I slammed my phone down thinking about me loosing my kids. I can't loose them I can't I can't!
Jessica: Good Morning *cheerfully and sits on her mother's lap*
Nikki: Someone woke up on a good side of bed *force a smile*
Jessica: You and daddy have the most comfortable bed ever *looks at her mom* Why are crying mommy?
Nikki: No reason honey *smiles*
Jennifer: Good Morning *also sits on her lap* Why are you crying mommy?
Nikki: *laughs* Girls I want you to know that I love you guys so much *kissed their foreheads* And I always will whenever you do you something wrong
Jennifer:We love you too *kisses her cheek*
Nikki: *looks at Jessica* What's wrong baby
Jessica: Will things be different now
Nikki: Ummm a little but you guys will always have me around okay
Jessica: Okay
Nikki: Good now let's get you girls ready

LATER THAT DAY
I decided to go talk to John at a restaurant about custody and the twins. I hate myself for wanting to do so but I have no choice just like mom said. I got in the shower and washed the sweat off from my match. I changed clothes and left the twins with Brie and went off to meet John.
John: Hi
Nikki: Okay let's just get straight to the point why did you do that *rudely*
John: Because Nicole you just took them
Nikki: Yes because you really need to get your shit together and you brought this on yourself
John: Yes I know I screwed but can you blame all you have been doing is yelling at me
Nikki: Yes because you have been ignoring and spending time with Mickie or spend time flirting with Mickie *frustrated*
John: Yes but I have always been there for you, I support you, I give you things you need, I be a father, that's all I have doing since day one
Nikki: And I appreciate you for doing that but there is one thing you dont do
John: I give up what
Nikki: Ever since you met Mickie you didn't show me any affection it wasn't hugs and kisses I never felt love I didn't feel love at all *hold in tears*
John: And I'm sorry it ended that way never expected us to ever end I always wanted us to stay together especially because everyone doubted us after we had the twins
Nikki: I felt like we could get threw it up but you said what you meant you do not love me anymore and you loved Mickie Millie and she feels the same for you *feel more tears*
John: Yeah
Nikki: And we got the girls in the mist of it and I can just tell that are scared about what is going to happen now that we are getting divorce
John: Why didn't they come and see me
Nikki: Their mad at you angry at you even that's why I flipped because they brarely want to see you
John: Why *hurt*
Nikki: They are mad that you did what you did they are mad that you are with a woman who they can't stand because they see her be mean to me so they see her as the enemy *about to cry*
John: I didn't they would be like this
Nikki: *tears falling down her face* Me neither because they were daddy girls
John: This is why I wanted them to stay with me
Nikki: John why I lost you and I don't want to loose them they are all I have your going to try and take them away *cracky voice*
John: No I'm not I just don't want to loose them they already hate me I want to show them I do love them
Nikki: I know you do and once we get custody it will all be done but for now you have to sign these
I took the files out my purse and hand it to him.
John: *hesitant* I'm sorry this had end *sign it*
Nikki: *looks at it with tears* Don't be it's not your fault how you felt
We got up getting ready to leave until he pulled me.
John: Can I get one last hug
Nikki: *nods* Yeah
He pulled me in passionate hug as I hugged him back really wanting to cry that I officially lost the love of my life.
Nikki: Bye *runs to the car*
Once I slammed the door shut and drove home trying not to crying and 5 minutes I was home.
J&J: Mommy!
Nikki: Hey Girls! *hugs them* Hey Brie
Brie: Hey
Jennifer: Mommy can we go to aunt Brie's house
Nikki: Sure have fun
They left with a bag of clothes and I was home by myself but within the first 5 minutes I completely broke down. I can't handle the fact of loosing him. I miss him so much. I sobbed my way to the bathroom and was washing my face until I found something and thought of doing something I never thought of doing. A razor. I slowly to the razor and made it make have contact with my skin. It felt good. I felt like I deserved that and it got to a point where I did it over and over again. Until it got really deep but I didn't notice what I carved.

J O H N

I stared at the bleeding word with more tears of pain coming. This is what I deserved and until I learn my lesson this razor is going to be my new best friend....

ToxicNena No not the razor Nikki. Don't you feel bad for her. I know I do.  Remember to VOTE and COMMENT  on what you think. Happy Reading!