Stuck!!

Guilt

Mohsin  pov 

I was awoken by hearing screams i grumbled but jolted up when i had remembered Shivi.

" No don't come near me i will not scream plz leave me NOOOO don't i beg of you " 

I shook  her but her body and mind were still stuck in her nightmare. By now she was screaming kicking her arms and legs so bad that if i went any closer it would result in me getting injured. Not that i would i tried but that i guess made her more scared . 

I scrambled around  my room to find one thing MY PHONE, now where the Hel* is it? Finally i said ah i held the phone up

' No i don't care if it is 3am in the morning i need you here now ' i yelled at the doctor as i ended the call and went to aid Shivi . She was shaking with fear i guess , every single world that came out of her mouth caused me a great amount of pain. I failed 

If i had not believed the stupid video Shivi would not be like this , it is all my fault . Those  scoundrels are in prison for their deeds Aditya and Ayesha are no where to be  found . I try to shake her but nothing will snap her out of her torture full nightmare.

The doctor came and gave her an injection she calmed down but was still whimpering , it broke my heart at what they have turned her in to and i couldn't help. It's all my fault MY fault all mine . I couldn't protect her .

Today when i saw her in that dirty club her eyes had drained the vibrant colour in her eyes and it was no longer there. When she saw me i saw her eyes twinkle and glisten a bit but when i said those harsh hatred filled words i broke her even more. 

All because of me , me it is  completely and solely my fault. I said as i cried and cried while holding her hand , my body instantly curled itself laying next to Shivi but scared of what would happen if i touch her. 

I stayed awake the whole night crying and trashing my room. Blood , cuts , bruises formed all around my body . I even punished myself with burns . This is the least i can do to get rid of the guilt but no it is still lingering in my heart and mind.

" NO " i heard Shivi and  in the speed of light i ran to her. She was sitting upright and crying with dark circles around her eyes. Her eyes lost the colour and her skin pale as snow and a fever burning up.

" She stared at me as if i was a ghost, i know what would be running in the big mind of hers i tries to lighten the moment.

" Take a picture it would last longer " i said with a sad laugh at the end my attempt to lighten the situation failed and instead Shivi's eyes widened as the peeked over my shoulder and .... 

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Sorry for taking so long and for a short chapter as i said i am on holiday and trying to take time out to update. It isn't that easy as the place i have gone sometimes has wifi and sometimes the connection gets lost so i am trying my hardest.