I found the help I needed(bellice twilight ff)

Chapter 7 past memories

I dedicate these next few chapters to JessicaElizabeth23 the girl who has helped me so much in a few days on this book and co wrote these next few chapters.
* Bella's pov *
*** Dream***

" mommy mommy come on " I say tugging her hand trying to go to the ice cream stand across the street from the park we were at "ok ok baby let's go "mommy says as we start to cross the street and all you hear is a honk and everything goes black. *** end of dream*** I wake up screaming "mommy no" as I do I feel Alice wrap her arms around me " shhh shhh baby it's ok it's ok calm down baby " she says in my ear as she rocks me. I hear a soft knock on the door " Alice is she ok " momma says cracking open the door to see me shaking and crying in Alice's arms. " oh baby girl another nightmare " momma asks softly." Y-yes " I say though the tears " it's a bad one " Alice said as she petting my hair and kissed my cheek. We sit there for what seems like forever before I ask" what time is it" my voice hoarse from crying "it's 5:30 baby " Alice says softly " ok I better get up" I say. Slowly getting up as Alice helps me get up. She walks to the closet and gets me a pair of sweatpants and a loose t-shirt as I grab my undergarments and walk to the bathroom she sets my stuff on the counter and runs me a bath when it's ready she kisses me " I will wait in our room to do your hair then we can go get you some food" she says as she walks out "ok" I whisper knowing she can hear me I slowly undress cringing as I look down and see my extra part I cry softly as I get in the bath. I wash and calm down, I get out and put my clothes on and walk out to see Alice sitting at our vanity doing her hair, she hears me and turns to me " I'm almost done baby then I can do yours" she says finishing up her hair. When she's done she has me sit down and she puts my hair in a simple French braid." Let's go get you some food I had Esme make you some French toast is that ok" she asks as we walk out of our room " it's fine baby " I say smiling at her. We get downstairs and walk into the kitchen " hey baby girl " momma says as she sets my plate on the table."hi momma" I say before I start eating. When I'm done I put my plate in the sink and take Alice's hand " let's go out to the garden " I say as we walk out to momma's garden. I sit on the bench next to the roses " I know you want to know what my nightmare was" I say looking at the roses " I do baby but you know I won't make you tell me anything you don't want too" she says wrapping her arms around my shoulders. " but I will I want you to know,you deserve to know" I say turning to look at her. She takes my hands and looks me in the eyes and says " ok baby". " ok first I'm going to explain my dream to you " I tell her taking a shaky breath " it's ok baby take your time we have all the time you need" she says lightly squeezing my hands. I take a deep breath. " the nightmare this time was the few moments leading up to my Mom's death " I say looking down at our hands clasped together Alice softly asked " how did she die " I look up at her with tears in my eyes " because I was a stupid little 3 year old and just couldn't stop asking for ice cream" I say starting to cry, Alice let go of my hands and cupped my face in her hands " oh baby it's not your fault you only  3 " she says wiping my tears away "  ok ok" I say taking a breath " I was having her take me across the street to get ice cream when all of the sudden all you can hear is a car horn and screaming and everything goes black" I finish as I'm crying Alice pulls  me into her chest" shhh shhh baby" she says stroking my hair and rocking me slightly as she holds me. I calm down " let's get you inside " Ali says as it starts to rain "ok " I say as we walk in the house we stop in the kitchen where momma had a grilled cheese on the table for me " thank you momma " I say sitting down at the bar. I eat and look up to see Rose walking into the kitchen to get to the garage " hi Bella how are you " Rose says as she walks in " hi Rose I'm ok " I say as I finish eating " that's good" Rose says as she walks into the garage."I'm gonna go to our room " I tell Alice as I get up " ok baby " she says as she goes to talk to momma. I walk up to our room and go sit at my desk and get my dairy out of my locked drawer. ~ dear diary I feel a little better now that I told Alice about some of my past I'm getting more worried about Alice finding out about my secret before I'm ready to tell her but she does pick my clothes out so I have to fix how I wear my clothes I love Alice with all my heart well that's it for now~ I put down my pen and put my diary back in my desk drawer. I get up and walk into my closet to get my nightgown and got my underwear and went to the bathroom and took a shower. I got out and dried my hair I went to the door and said " I'm gonna lay down" " ok " Alice and momma say from downstairs. So I lay down and slowly fall asleep.