Fear is a scary thing. It is entirely captivating and leaves numb and alone with your thoughts. Thoughts that run rapidly, without capture and take your breath away. The butterflies in your stomach do not feel little, in fact they feel more like magpies, crows even, flapping frantically to no avail. They scream and they scream and they scream for help that feels as though it will never arrive. Time slows, almost to a complete halt, passing excruciatingly slowly, one nanosecond at a time.
You see, fear is like an irrational being. It understands it's outlandish remarks and stupid and should be treated as such, however it's soft whispers feel trustworthy in the moment. Almost as though an old friend is telling you a secret.
Every step you take, every move you make, feels controlled. Almost like you are a puppet and do not have a will of your own. Your movements are robotic in style, and carried out without any deal of consideration.
Your heart beats. Quicker, quicker, quicker, quicker. It beats stronger, stronger, stronger. You cannot control it; you are a slave to fear. You cower at its voice. You do not challenge it as it pushes you harder, as it screams louder, you instead respond with cowardice. Kneeling and heeding to its commands, you become nothing; you become worthless. No two people are impacted in the exact same way. Some thrive on fear. They throw themselves at every possible situation in which you could feel fear and they give in. Just for a moment, they let the fear manifest in their mind. Then they retaliate. They punch back. They win. Some people, are resilient in such a way. I am not...
