Look At Me

Ethan x Reader

      It was a crazy thing to think about...how much I liked him. Ethan Nestor was picture perfect in my eyes and I could hardly believe someone like him actually existed. His hazel eyes were always so bright and full of happiness that it just sucked you in and made you happy too. They made you forget about any and all problems that could possibly be plaguing your thoughts. His naturally dark brown hair was dyed blue at the top and, though it was a little hay-like from the constant dying, the brown part was still unbelievably soft.

     His personality was perfect too. He was the type of kind that, if you were down and out over something, he would come right to the rescue and try to help you out. His happiness was contagious and he was extremely funny, despite how many times he argued that he wasn't. Then there was his shyness...it was possibly one of the most adorable things in the world. It could mainly be seen when he played ukulele or sang. Somehow, he thought he wasn't really that good, but I knew that he was amazing. If I could, I would listen to him sing for days on end. He was just so talented and his voice was so soothing.

     Everything about him practically had me in a trance. When I wasn't around him...I wanted nothing more than to be there. When I was around him...I never wanted to leave. That being said, my feelings for him were probably extremely obvious. It seemed that everybody could see them except for him. I had been confronted by Amy, Kathryn, Tyler, and Mark multiple times about my feelings. They had often tried to get me to confess to him, but I was scared. Having him in my life as a friend was better than not having him in my life at all.

     "(Y/N)? You okay in there?" My thoughts dissipated, bringing me back to reality where those hypnotizing hazel eyes were looking into mine.

     "Hm? Yeah, I'm fine, Ethan. Did you need something?" I asked, hoping my cheeks weren't going red due to his sudden closeness to my face.

     "Not really. I just wanted to make sure you were okay." He answered with a shrug. It warmed my heart to know that he cared about me and wanted to make sure I was okay. The thought was enough to bring a dopey, love-struck smile across my face as I looked up at him.

     "Well...thank you." A look of confusion flashed across his face.

     "What are you thanking me for?" He asked, slightly chuckling.

     "For caring, I guess. I'm not really sure...it was kind of the first thing that popped into my head." I admitted with a sheepish smile, making him nod as he let out a sound of understanding.

     "That makes sense. You don't need to thank me for caring, though." He assured with a kind smile that took my breath away. God, he was so beautiful that it made me want to cry sometimes.

     "You never know these days." I shrugged. Things kind of went silent after that, but it was comfortable. Silence with him was never really awkward. Just being around him made me comfortable, so maybe that was why.

     Regardless, the silence was ruined when everyone else came into the room. I earned a few knowing looks from the others, making me roll my eyes as I tried to fight away the blush. They were like embarrassing parents some times. I knew they meant the most, though, so that was what really mattered.

     Conversation with everyone was nice, but at some point I found myself boredly scrolling through Tumblr on my phone. I was specifically looking through the 'Teamiplier' tag just to see what people were posting. There was a bunch of screenshots and text posts, most of which were really funny. Then there was the fanart, which always impressed me. The fans were so talented and it never seized to amaze me.

     Something, however, caught my eye as I mindlessly scrolled. It was a post filled with gifs of Ethan and I looking at each other throughout the various random videos I'd been in. The caption read: 'I want someone to look at me the way (y/n) and Ethan look at each other'. That made me look through the gifs again. Of course, there were ones with me looking at him with that same dopey, love-struck smile that I found on my face pretty often. As I looked through them for the second time, though, I realized that the look he gave me wasn't much different.

     My heart was thundering in my chest at the realization that...he looked at me the same way I looked at him. That meant he probably liked me back. I could feel the biggest smile spread across my face as I thought about it. There was nothing I wanted more than my feelings to be returned. I always thought it was impossible. Someone like Ethan liking someone like me? Of course, it wasn't absolutely ridiculous, but it was a bit of a shock.

     I put my phone away after that, mentally making a note to go through the tag of our ship name. I was curious as to what else was posted, but I knew I shouldn't go through that with everyone else around. That was definitely something I would do later when I was alone in my room. Still, as I re-entered the conversation, I kept getting knowing glances and teasing remarks...but I couldn't find myself minding. Everything was just great at this moment.

     Eventually, we all decided to put on a movie. Everybody was caught up with everything that needed to be done and it was one of those rare moments when we could all just relax together. As the movie progressed, though, I couldn't concentrate and I knew what needed to be done.

     "Hey Ethan," I whispered, catching the blue boy's attention. "Can I talk to you in the other room for a second?" I asked, earning a slightly concerned look.

     "Yeah, sure." He nodded. We then got up and headed into the kitchen together, earning confused and playful looks from everyone else. As we left the room I could feel my hands begin to shake due to nerves. I knew I was taking a big chance here, but I needed to know. It was going to happen eventually, so why not do it under my own terms? "What did you need to talk about?" Ethan asked, eyes searching my face curiously.

     "Well, there's this thing I've been meaning to talk to you about, but I've been kind of scared." I took a deep breath, looking away from him beautiful eyes. It was now or never. "Ethan, I really like you...and I have for a long time now. I know you might not feel the same, but I just wanted to get my feelings out there. I didn't want to hold them in any longer and I hope we can still be friends if you don't-"

     My ramblings were cut short by the feeling of his hands on my cheeks and his lips on mine. I could've sworn that my heart was soaring into the sky right then and there. Nothing in my life had ever felt as amazing as it did when I gathered myself enough to kiss back, hands reaching up to loosely grab the front of his shirt. It was as if I was scared that he wasn't here and that he would disappear at any moment...but he didn't. He was still there when we pulled apart and he was smiling down at me so brightly and so beautifully that I knew I didn't want to look at anything else for the rest of my life. He was...indescribable.

     "I like you too, (y/n). A lot." He whispered, letting his hands drop to his sides before lightly grabbing mine and pulling me the slightest bit closer.

     Quickly, I wrapped my arms around his torso in a tight hug. This caused him to chuckle as he hugged me back, arms wrapped around my shoulders as he buried his face in my hair. Nothing could be better than this. Being with him now was like heaven on earth.

     "We're together now, right?" He asked quietly, making me laugh.

     "I'd like that." I whispered back, looking up at him to find his lips spreading into yet another beautiful smile. Once again, my breath was taken from me as easily as always. How was he so beautiful?

     "Finally!" We both jumped in shock, looking over to find the others in the doorway with various looks of pride on their faces. This made me blush a bit in embarrassment, but I was too happy to really mind too much. This moment was all that I needed...an amazing boyfriend and great friends who were just as amazing. What more could I ask for?