Im falling

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Iris' P.O.V

As i lay by his side. I can hear the faint heartbeat that fills the room, the machine mimicking the noises reverberating on the inside of his chest. The walls around us, hiding us away from the world, are white and smell as if they had just been sanitized. 

The cords that stick and poke at his body make him look like corps. His once golden skin now held a white pale tint to it, and the hair that used to bounce in the wind as he strode down the road, now lay limp on his forehead, covering the small birthmark the hides up in the corner of his hairline. 

The golden eyes that put the suns rays to shame were now shut and had dark circles surrounding the eyelids and made it seem as though he had not slept in days, which is odd considering he had done nothing but sleep for the past few.

I miss the late talks we had, the stories he told. The times he would help me get through all the problems that seemed to accumulate throughout my life; and most of all, the love he gave me.

I guess that's what caused me to do it. To give up a part of myself for his well being, most would say that its generous, but in my eyes its nothing but selfish. I'm stopping him from reaching his destiny because i want to be here, instead of moving on.

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My head was laid up on his chest, arms wrapped around his body as he had his back against the couch, laying down with me on top of him. His arms loosely wrapped around my waist.  He had passed out after watching yet another movie, on our mini movie marathon he planned. And now here I lay watching them by myself because his lazy ass decided that it was a better idea to take a nap.

I'm watching as the colored pictures flash across the screen creating an array of moving people and scenery.  But one slide catches my eye. A clip of a couple kissing in the rain and drowning away the problems that once held them captive. As they look in each others eyes you can tell that they were soul mates from the beginning, they just couldn't tell because of all the obstacles the world decided to through there way to test there love, but love is always stronger than that of death. So in other words, if one has love, the only thing that can ruin it, is if the love is given up due to the own persons doing, not the complications found along the way. 

And now i'm happy that he was asleep under me and not watching the screen play one of my desires. From the first time I saw this scene as a child, i had wished for that sappy romance to occur in my life. To find my self kissing the one i love in the rain. To find someone throwing pebbles at my window in the middle of the night. Then to find that someone who would not stand in front of me, stopping me from doing the impossible, but the one that would stand next to me and help me get as far as i can, and in times of struggle pull me back up and push me forward, with them right there.

As my fantasies cloud my mind, my vision starts to focus back on the body i have spent my whole life with, He may not be the hopeless romantic that i have found my self becoming, but he is a fantasy that has come true.

His chest is moving up and down as mine moves down and up in perfect rhythm. His brown hair is poofed up and silky. Then as my eyes move down his face, i'm disappointed to not be able to see the golden spheres that seem to sparkle in even the darkest of places. His nose is a cute, but manly, and places perfectly on his face. Then finally his lips. Thick and pouted as air slips through them, the dark pink tint also adds to the contrast of colors on his face. 

His collar bones are prominent and tanned like the rest of his body and his chest-

"You're staring."

My little illusion slash staring fest was cut short when he spoke.

My eyes then go back up to his face but i'm met with closed eyes.

"How could you tell, your eyes are still closed."

"I just know you too well." His lips curved upward and his eyes remained shut as he spoke. "You are too predictable."

"Am not, you are just to self conceded to not think i was staring, i was in fact still watching the movie you are neglecting to watch with me." I smiled, knowing i had got him.

"What if i said my eyes were open, and i did catch you staring, and i was just testing to see if you would lie or not?"

I was now at a cross road, do i lie or get caught. Truthfully i had no idea if he had actually seen me or not, but my eyes had been on his face for a good 3 minutes, and i didn't see his eye flutter once, so i went with my gut and went for it.

"I wasn't staring" I stated confidently.

"Liar." He said calmly with a slight smile adorned on his lips, then he was then still for a second.

Then the next thing i knew, I was under him and his fingers were at my side moving and tickling me till I couldn't breath.

My giggling filled the room and my breathing became nonexistent as all i could do was laugh or spew what air i had left in my lungs. "Stop!" My eyes were closed shut and I was laughing and struggling to get out from under him. Grabbing on to his side with one hand the other trying to move his hand. 

"Stop! Stop! I'll do anything!" I screamed, my sides endured another second or so before he stopped and looked down at me. 

I looked up and finally my eyes opened and i could see his looking down at me. The same golden color i want to see every second of every day. There was a bright yellow color that surrounded the outer ring of his eyes and a golden color in the middle. But what always seemed to catch my line of sight were the reflective golden flakes that seemed to swim in his honey eyes. I would often catch myself wondering if they were actual gold flakes due to how they shin in the sun and how they would produce the beautiful color when he would smile in any light.

"Anything you say?" He smiled down at me and had a evil glint in his eye.

"Now i'm scared, what do you want?" I laughed, wondering what he had in mind.

"You have to come to a party with me. Its small and i promise to keep you safe the whole night, i will always be with you, not there is a difference any other day." He gave me a goofy grin and looked back at me with excitement.

"Deal." I smiled and looked up into his mesmerizing eyes. I haven't been to many parties but being with him makes all problems that seem to rise throughout the day, disappear. So ill spend all the possible time i can with him.

" Yes!" He leaned down giving a quick peck before jumping up and dragging me with him.

"It starts in 2 hours so ill be back to pick you up in an hour or so." 

"You planned this!" I yelled and laughed as he made his way towards the door.

"Me? Plan? You're joking right? Plus that would go against my conscience to blackmail you like that, after all-"

He walked back over and wrapped his arms around my waist and brought me close to chest, his head a few inches above my own. 

He looked down and spoke. "I love you. So that should make up for it."

He then lent down and placed his lips over mine again. His started moving at a slow pace and being gentle. His arms tightening around my waist to further pull me in. My arms then draped around his shoulders and pulled lightly and the hair on the back of his head before he pulled away.

"I'll see you in an hour." With that he gave me a slight squeeze and walked back to the door.

"I love you." He said.

"I love you more."

He smiled. "Impossible" Then he shut the door and left.