To Find New Love (boyxboy)

chapter two

    JOSH'S POV

i awoke to the sound of my mother pushing me off my bed and then kicking me square in the chest (did i mention my parents are abusive)."Get up you fag!!"MY own mother yelled to me. "i up now please stop kicking....." POW. I got kicked in the mouth by my OWN mother. But i'm used to it by now so it doesn't hurt as much as to when they started. 

   Finally my mother was satisfied of the mess she made of me and stopped kicking me. Before she left my room she let out a evil chuckle "when your done cleaning yourself up meet me in the kitchen, I need to talk to you" And after that she left me in a confused but shocked state. I shake it off and go to the bathroom to clean up my face and my chest. As soon as i looked into the bathroom mirror i sighed. I had a messed up lip and it was bleeding like everywhere and i had a black eye. Surprisingly this was much better than normal. I wonder why? I got my face all cleaned up and then went back to my room.

   I decided on ripped jeans, black converse, and my rainbow hoodie that says 'gay is okay'. (my parents hate the hoodie) And a plain black shirt under it. I walked into the kitchen and my parents were happy for some reason. I'm so confused! "sit, son" My mother said while patting the chair beside her and smiling at me. I hesitated a lot before sitting down without saying anything else."I need to talk to you about something very important"She said while still smiling. IM SO CONFUSED, And a bit scared. "what, do you actually love me now" I muffled so she wouldn't hear me but just my luck she heard "No but i'm very happy right now" She said with a very annoyed tone. "why don't you just kick me out" i said while looking into her eyes. "i mean you hate me, you make my life miserable and i just want to leave this house and you wont let me even know you hate me"I said while trying to hold back tears.

   " i dont want my reputation to be ruined  by a fag like you" she said blandly. It hurt so much , Hearing my own mother say those words to me. It hurt so much hearing it because i still love her for some reason. I started crying even know i tried to stop the tears but they wouldnt stop. " well since you already sad im going to take this time to tell you what i need to tell you" My mother said before smiling at me and saying "Alex, Your boyfriend , committed suicide last night by cutting his wrist"She said very blankly. "WHAT, your kidding right" i said while letting out a nervous laugh. " nope very serious" She said while smiling at me. "why didn't he tell me bye or why did he do it" i questioned while i started bawling my eyes out in the kitchen. I ran outside to my mothers car and grabbed the keys out of the glove department. i started the car while my mother starts to rush outside but before she can do anything im off on the road. 

  I drive 1 hour to Alex's house. When i get park on the curb i can see Alex's mother crying  and paramedics in the drive way. I get out and run to her and hug her. She is surprised at first but then relaxes in my embrace. "Why are you hear" her voice kinda muffled by my t-shirt. "he was my boyfriend" I said with a very saddened voice 'why would she even ask that question' I thought while still hugging Alex's mother " but you live an hour away" She said while her voice is still muffled."Why did he do it" i said while crying horribly. " i don't know but i will figure it out" She said with a mad and determined voice. After a couple of minutes of hugging and crying on each other a paramedic came out of the house with a stretcher and a white sheet over Alex's body. "MY BABY" his mother yelled and ran toward his lifeless body.

   I decided to actually not be a toward and go over there and look to. When i walked over there His mother already had the sheet pulled of his face. She was rubbing his hair and had her forehead against his lifeless one. I started crying even more when i saw his face with closed eyes and no expression. She backed away and looked at me, she nodded in content and i knew what she meant. I walked closer to Alex's lifeless, emotionless face. I kissed his forehead. it was cold and i didnt feel what i usually felt when i touched him. I started to ugly cry and mumble 'i love you so much' and 'why' and even' i'll miss you's'. i felt 'this is my fault,if I asked him more of what was wrong i could of prevented this' i said to his mother while wrapping my arms around her and crying on her shoulder.' oh honey, this is not your fault but, i will figure out who's it was tho' she said with determination. 

   I felt so vulnerable crying on her shoulder. This women was a better mother than my own. I really want to move back here. 'can i move in with you, please' She pulled back with surprise. "what?' she said with a very shocked voice. 'you know how mt parents are and i rather be with you than them, You were a better mother to me than my own, and i dont want you being lonely since he was your only kid, please'I said with desperation laced words.'i dont know, i would have to file for guardianship, she said with an unknown expression. "easy, i have prove of abuse'i said while pulling up my shirt to show her the bruises on my chest. she touched one of the bruises and i winced very loudly. 'ill try i guess' she said with a better expression. 'im going back to this school and getting to the bottom of this' i said with so much determination even i was surprised. 'oh my, josh are you sure' she said with so much worry in her voice she sounded like a dying cat trying to save her kittens. 'yeah, im sure' i said while looking her in the eyes. 'ok' is all she said. she let out a sad chuckle and said ' i remember the day you two met and immediately became best friends when you both were 7'. sadness laced everyone of those words. ' i do to' i said while remembering the day.

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 my  mother wanted me to go to her new friends house with her because her friend had a kid the same age as me. I was excited because i was the kid at school who didnt make friends easily and know i finally have a chance to make a new best friend. My mother put me into the backseat of the car and shut the door after a few moments she got into the drivers side and put the keys in the ignition and started driving off.

  While she was driving i must of fallen asleep because i awoke to my mom picking me up out of the car. she put me down and said we were there. I was so excited to make a new friend. When we got to the door  mother knocked and  a few moments later a lady that looked in her mid 20's and had emerald green eyes and beautiful brown hair opened the door and smiled at us 'come in please' she said while opening the door fully. I walked into a living room i guess because it had a couch and a coffee table in the middle and a big flat screen on the wall. 'why don't you go play with Alex' My mother said while pointing to the couch where i know notice a little boy my age with brown chestnut hair and tan skin. hes also watching my favorite show 'teen titans go' . i walk into the living room and plop down onto the couch on the other end of where he was sitting.'hey, whats your name?" the little boy asked me and i noticed he had a high pitched  voice that was funny. i giggled at his voice and he gave me a mean look so i stopped and said " my names josh, and i already know your name, its alex i said casually.

      We sat in silence watching 'teen titans go'. i started laughing at the show and alex looked at me weirdly so i stopped. 'this is my favorite show' i say while looking at the tv. 'ME TOO' alex yelled and jumped on the couch.'I have the biggest crush on starfire ever' he yelled while looking at me in amazement. 'me too!!" i yelled back at him and jumped on the couch just like he did. we just stared at each other in amazement for a moment until he said' lets me best friends'he said while smiling at me.'the bestest' i said while we high fived.

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      Thx for reading and im sorry it took so long  to update and it kinda hard to update with school and other things ughhhhhh. my life is a living hell. im so tired but i had to finish this chapter.

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