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{REQUESTED} Together: Saeyoung X Reader (Anorexic + Depressed)

(WARNING!! Depressing thoughts {not really though} and some other sad stuffu. Requested by @fangirl-love. So sorry this took so long. WARNING!! This will be a little dramatic... ok, A LOT dramatic. And might be cringey too.)
Laterz! ('⊙ω⊙')
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Still not skinny enough. I need to eat less, but I can't show Saeyoung. He might tell me to lose more weight, so instead of him telling me, I'll take action into my own hands. Speaking of Saeyoung, we barely spend time together as a couple now. Is it because I'm fat, or does he not love me anymore. What if he doesn't? Cause if he doesn't, then I'm gonna eat causing me to get even more fat than I am. What am I gonna do? ... I have to eat less, and run more than I usually do so I don't lose him and I can actually be skinny.

You change into exercising clothes and find Saeyoung on the computer. He hates it when you leave without saying goodbye, so you sneaked past him and exited out of the house.

You always at least ran or jogged for 30 minutes, but now you're running an hour everyday. But once you were done, you felt like you were going to collapse. But you didn't care, as long as you're losing weight, you're fine.

Once you got home, you went to the bathroom since you haven't checked the scale in two days. You slowly stepped on it and read 94. You couldn't believe it. You still haven't reached your goal. Your goal was 90 or less, but you were still fat. You wanted to cry. But you stood up and went to the kitchen for some fruit, and then purge. But Saeyoung interrupted you.

"(Y/N), where were you? I was worried you got kidnapped or passed out on the street?! You were gone longer than normal. You need to start telling me when you're going to leave the house. Cause if you get kidnapped or pass out, I won't know until a long time... just please... please start talking to me."

You were a little surprised. You grabbed his hand and held it in yours. "I'm fine, Saeyoung. But... I'll start telling you things from now on. Ok?"

Saeyoung gave you a weak smile as he hugged you, but you were being lifted in the air.

"(Y-Y/N)? Why are you l-lighter than normal?"

"I'm not light, I'm heavy, Saeyoung. I need to lose more weight. It's just... I hate my body, it keeps on gaining weight when I'm supposed to be 90 pounds or less. It's not healthy for me."

"(Y-Y/N), you got it all wrong. You're way under weight. You don't need to lose anymore weight. You are perfect the way you are."

You knew he was lying. Except you thought he was only saying that because he thinks you're fat. But in reality, he thinks you're way too skinny and needs to eat and gain weight.

"Why are you lying to me," you said as you pushed him away, but you continue, "You know I'm fat. D... do you just not want to tell me I'm fat?! I know I'm fat! I don't need to hear it from my boyfriend! Why did you lie!"

You ran to your shared bedroom and locked the door. You heard Saeyoung run after you and knock on the door.

"(Y/N), open the door... yes, I was lying. But I know you're not fat. I'm gonna be honest with you, (Y/N). I'm sorry to say, but you're way too skinny. A woman your age is supposed to be weighing 120-133 since you have a small frame. (Yes, I looked that up, Lolz. But I decided you have a small body frame, if that's ok with chu.) But this isn't healthy for you, you need to stop this. I... I don't want to lose you..."

  Your eyes filled with a little tears, but you wiped them away before you could let them fall. You walked to the door and opened it. You saw Saeyoung crying. You did feel bad, but you felt this was going to be best.