Butterfly

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by redfonthux

by redfonthux

I was staring at the ocean's beauty,
While watching the movements of the clouds.
The breeze gone cold and dry,
And the birds go chirp as they fly.

Then I suddenly sat on a bench,
Taking a rest,
And watch over people passing by and imagining what they'll look like on a sketch.

Finally, I'm free to do anything,
To be weird and not to feel anything,
To walk like a king,
And live like I'm happy.

Suddenly, I saw you so beautiful and free,
Flying through your wings is everything I see.
Majestic feels as you move your wings in the air,
To look like crazy while staring at you is the thing I do not care.

Then I tried to stand to catch you,
But you flew away like somebody owns you.
I saw you clinged to that other butterfly and so you looked happy,
But it broke your wings and it left you falling.

Then I tried to stand and catch you again,
But this time, I've never failed.

I gave you my love and healed you with dreams,
And helped you stand and filled you with optimistic things.
I made you strong even though I'm weak,
I helped you stand up while you're bringing me down.

The strong waves of the wind takes you away from me,
But I embraced you so warm, so you can stay with me right here.
We've enjoyed the moments that we shared,
We've conqued together all the chaos that the world made.

But then I suddenly thought -
If you're already fine, would you leave me alone?
If you won't need me anymore,
Would you disappear and gone?

As we shared every second of happiness,
Is a thought of me, afraid you left me with sadness.
Because every after moments that we played,
Is an hour that you stare at that butterfly again.

There's a lot of flowers and other butterflies that could attract you away from me,
That's why my anxiety's getting stronger as you look at them.

I wanna hold your hand as I tight as I can,
But I know I can't.
Because I don't wanna hurt you,
And I do not owe you.

As we play as the touch of the cold breeze touches our skin and the waves of the ocean goes stronger,
I always pray time to stop or even go slow so I can hold you even longer.
Because even you didn't say,
You shall gonna leave me slowly, and I know you'll never stay.

I'm hardly crying as I'm praying to God and begging you to not to leave me hanging,
But you still insist that you still love that butterfly that who leave you broken.

But then I love you that much, that I want you to be happy -
I'd set you free because I know you'll happier with him.
It's been years, but I'm still crying,
Every second, it feels like I'm dying.

I'm still waiting for you to recall,
The memories of you and me is the reason why I'm hoping for a miracle.
I'm always missing you even you don't think of me at all,
I'm praying so hard that someday you'll go back home.

I learned this time that love is not about time,
It's about the affection you had even the last feelings is not mine.
But now, I will love you here far away,
Hoping for something shall never happen even if I fade.

I love you with all of my heart,
Thank you for all the dreams we shared in the past.
My love for you shall never change.
Forever.