*Let It Be Me*(A young Criss Angel Story)

SIX-6

It's been only a week after Papa J's death...and I was an emotional wreck not knowing what to do or where to go...all I could to was hold onto his wedding band with a death grip...my parents were hardly ever home again...and I was too nervous to go to my friends...so one day while I knew all the boys were gone...I went over to Mama D's and asked her if I could come in and talk to her...she kissed me, on the cheek still having tears for her loss...and said I was always welcome here...and she would always be there to talk to...first I told her how sorry I was to hear about Papa J...and that I really missed him...she gave me a hug and thanked me in my ear...I looked at her inquisitively for a few minutes and she smiled at me and said John promised that he wouldn't tell his boys about me visiting him...and that he told her everything about my visitations...then she showed me the hospital bill was only $9.87 for his entire stay at the hospital that all other fees were paid...then she looked at me and said she knew that I was responsible for it.

I looked away from her and said it was my way of giving back...knowing that with JD losing his job...for staying with his pregnant fiance...and Costa losing his job...just because his boss didn't like him...I knew Crisstopher wouldn't be able to pay all the bills by himself by working his ass off day and night at his club...besides Papa J was always there for me when I needed him...and now it was my turn to be there for him...knowing he didn't have any insurance. Mama D pulled me into a huge hug and thanked me again for everything...that I had no idea how much I helped them all during this very bad time. Then she dried her eyes again and asked me what I needed to talk to her about...I sat down next to her and said that I was pregnant...and scared...because after Papa J left...I had no one to talk to...and I wasn't sure what to do.

Then I told her about who knocked me up and why...then said he wouldn't want nothing to do with me...because he did it knowing that I wouldn't be able to prove it...because he drugged me during the party...she thought on it for a moment then asked what John's advice to me was...I looked at her and said that he told me to talk to Crisstopher...and that he would know what to do...but then I told her that we haven't talked to each other since I split apart from him and left him behind four years ago...Dimitra noticed John's ring around my neck and she asked me what John said when he handed me his ring...I looked down as I was unknowingly clenching it in my hand...and told her that he said he wanted me to hold onto it for him...that I was going to need it...and that when the right time came he wanted me to give it to Crisstopher.

Dimitra gave me a smile and said John had the right advice...then she kissed me on the forehead and told me that I needed to talk to Crisstopher...I thanked her for her time...and told her that I loved her...but I wasn't ready to talk to Crisstopher about anything...let alone about my problem about being knocked up by some other prick...then I ran out of the back door when I heard Crisstopher's motorcycle pull up in the driveway...Dimitra felt so bad for me...so she called Crisstopher into the room and told him everything for me...then asked him to go to me...because she was to afraid to go to him...or anyone else. Crisstopher wanted to...but not yet...because he was still in deep mourning from losing his dad...and all he wanted to do after he got home from work was go to his room and go to sleep.

Even when I hung out with my girlfriends none of them seemed to notice the change in me...so I played along that nothing was wrong...I guess I just thought I was bigger...but I was only three weeks in...and had a long time before things started to get noticeable. I was sitting at the park talking with Sandy, her boyfriend Sully, Kim and Rachel...when Stoney came down the sidewalk...Rachel thought he was looking for her...and tried to tell him no...with her eyes...but he passed her up and went straight to me and gave me a big hug and said how much he missed me...and was damn tired of hiding in the shadows hoping that I would say something to him...so know he was saying it...that he wanted his sweet pea back...and it was time that I lose the stupid charade that I didn't know him.

I jumped up and wrapped my arms around him and told him I was sorry for being such a bitchy snob and that he was right...then I kissed him on the cheek and told him that I loved him...he was my big bro and always would be...then I told everyone that I lied to them all when I said I didn't know him and Crisstopher...that I was raised with them...and we were like three peas in the same pod...and just for popularity when I was 15 I left them behind afraid they would ruin any chance I had...and all the time I looked right at Stoney and told him it wasn't worth it...that I missed him more than anything...Stoney shook his head in agreement and said damn straight I did...then he asked what about Crisstopher...I told him I needed to talk to him too...but I just wasn't ready for that yet.

None of my friends seemed to care that I knew them, Sully jumped up and said he knew the crazy bastards too...and was close friends with Crisstopher...but he and Klayton had more of the love hate relationship...Stoney grabbed him by his vest and told him it wasn't a love hate relationship...it was a hate hate relationship...then he carelessly dropped him back down in his spot...Rachel jumped up next and said that she has been secretly dating Klayton for almost 3 weeks now...Stoney grabbed her and kissed her and told her she didn't have to tell them...she gave him a grin and said yes she did.