I'm Sorry But I don't regret it

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"M-Mom?" She Said Her Voice Shaking as She stood Up from the dining chair."Yes Sweetie?" Her mother replied. "I Have something to t-tell you..."

"You can tell me anything you know..." Her mother replied getting slightly nervous.

"I-I'm B-Bisexual." I Finally Admitted, Her mothers smile faded turning into a frown...

"That Will not be tolerated in this house, That Is absolutely disgusting!" She exclaimed...

"B-But-" The Girl started.

"NO!" Her mother cut her of before she could say anything Else

She ran Upstairs her eyes flooding with tears, As she walked into the bathroom She saw what She thought is her only friend...A Razor.

She picked it up, and Dragged it over her Pale Cold skin now covered in blood. She remembers what All the girls at school said to her and cut some of the words into Her thighs and Waist

'Ugly' 'Fat' 'Worthless' 'Faggot' 'Fag'

'Needy'. That's 3 on One Thigh and 3 on her waist.

The blood is now oozing from her wrists thighs and waist.

After that she cleaned up the blood and put bandages on her cuts so they don't open again before falling asleep like nothing happened.

The next day was A Sunday. It was The Day- The day she would finally do it, The day she would Finally Kill herself.

She got the rope and chair ready She grabbed a pen and paper and wrote. One for her ma And one for her Best friend Siara.

Dear Ma,

Im Sorry For doing this. Well im not but I Know you wont miss me. Im just the Bi freak that no one loves... This world is just not my place and I was born at the wrong place at the wrong time. I think this is for the best and that no one will miss me. Please Dont try and save me this is what I want. And this is what everyone else wants, The girls and boys at schools, You, The Teachers, Siara. Im wearing the outfit that dad bought me the day before he done the same thing... Ya Know 'Suicidal People are just angels wanting to go home' My hands are shaking as I Write this, This means its time to stop and write my letter for siara.

Ill be looking down on you always ~Katie

she Finally stopped writing and Figured out what She would say To her one and only friend Sierra As she finally found what she was going to say Her words flew like a river.

Dear Sierra.

You didn't cause this so I don't want you living in guilt or sadness for the rest of your life. I was Just not strong enough. You know a boy once saw all my scars and said

'Your an angel...'

'What?" I replied

'Mama Said That angels have scars on their writs because they want to go home so they do that...'

'Your mama Is a very smart woman' I replied

'My Mamas An Angel...' The boy said before skipping of To play with his friends.

I will miss you so very much Sierra...I love you so much and I will every day up there, And I will wait until your 100 years old sitting in your rocking chair And you finally die and I will say

'Its been a long journey without you' And we will hug each other in our 17 year old  forms again. And cry in each others arms. We will sit and talk for hours apon end in the after life just talking how each other have been and You will Finally say

'I've been lost for 73 years  But now I've been found because I'm right next to you again' then we will hug like we have never hugged before and fly far far away...I will miss our silly little games and names And the way we would talk to our crushes while giggling secretly, Or our language that we made up to talk during class without anyone knowing. I will miss the way we would take walks down the beach pretending to everyone we were a couple, Or how you used to bully me in Primary school up to 3rd year in high school, And when you stood up for me when that guy tried to steal my lunch money but you gave him a black eye. Ill miss How you would come over with chocolate, ice cream, Cake, Cookies, Smoothies, Loads of movies to pick from and much more when I felt upset.

You are my world and always will be

I love you my Beautiful bully.

~Katie

I finally finish writing my 2 letters and stand up on the chair, I tie the Rope tight around my neck and kick the chair so it falls to the ground. As she hangs there the world begins fading Before it finally all goes black.

Her mother finally storms in the room and sees her own Precious little girl just...Hanging there. She untied her and her limp body fell to the ground

A Couple days Later Sierra found her note and collapsed. Her world her everything just Collapsed right on top of her, Its like drowning, But you notice every detail, Like how you slowly sink gasping for air but only water fills your lungs making you splutter and cough. She read the note over and over, Even though when ever she reads it a bit of her dies inside...

Years Past And Sierra Is now broken, In everyway possible. The only think that Keeps her going is knowing that Katie would be so disappointed in her if she gave up...That was her only motivation...

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