Feelings

Regret

That feeling. That feeling where you know someone is ill, possibly dying, yet you can't do anything. You can't visit them. You can't express your feelings, scared someone will judge you. You can't go up to them and tell them you miss them, you love them. The worst part of that feeling is knowing that you could have said all that and more before but you never wanted to, never felt the need to, never thought that was what you were feeling. But you can't change that. Even if you hope and wish with all your soul, there is nothing you can do to get that time back, to say all those things you want to say to them but can't. You have no time. This is what it's all about. Time. No matter what happens from here on out, it's going to always be about time. Whether it's seeing if you have time to shower before going to school, or whether it's if you have time to say 'I love you' or 'goodbye'. It's all about time and whether you have enough of it. You will never know. I've experienced that feeling and I regret not saying something. I wish I had more time, doesn't everyone. But I can't get any more time because I've wasted the time I've had and now I have to deal with that. That feeling where no matter what, you know that, that feeling will never go away, it will stick to you like time itself.