Beautiful garbage

{so lonley}

Hhhh,,,

I'm sorry if I forget to respond and such, a lot has been going on,,

First there's my Discord Buds, and the person I was romantically interested well uh.. we went into deeper connection.. now in a way of dating but.. sometimes it just seems he's bored of me, he has so much fun with his guy friend in Overwatch and barley invites me to play, let alone talks to me... the relationship was toxic anyways.. I'd always play nice and let him talk about his crush while we were dating and, honestly I hate myself for that. I just wanted to be a better person, and to finally like and forgive myself for everything I've done. For all the Drama that I tend to cause, it's given me the title of drama whore. Roleplaying has become more and more of an issue now because of this, and I'm even thinking he's just stopped liking me all together, I've had deep feelings for him, about a year, maybe even two. He said he's had the same but... sometimes I can't believe a word he tells me in those DMs. This loneliness is killing, and how neglected I feel to just sit there in the server where he doesn't even notice my own existence... I've grown so distant from him and it obviously upsets me...
But I've taught myself something

If I stay quiet, bottle up my emotions and drama.

Then people would like me more.

Well I mean, it obviously has worked, I've made so many friends here, haven't I?