Everybody always said you were toxic
You were no good for me
You would drag me down and beat me bloody
They though I was blinded by the hope of friendship
Or maybe it was an act of compassion
The truth is you reminded me so much of her
Yet you were more twisted
Somehow meaner
And so much more beautiful
I left without a choice
Hoped you would find another shoulder to cry on
Another person to lead on
To poison slowly
I tried so hard to be right for you
But you always preferred others
Always preferred her
Even when you said she was a bitch
Even when she made you cry
You always told her your secrets
You always trusted her
I never left you
I was always for you even if you cast me aside
Everybody thought I was clingy
Thought you should ditch me
Now my mind is clear and I see
You were perfect for me
You made me strong
And set me free
And I still think of you
A part of me will always love you
And I cry on Valentine day hoping you are well
Hoping she is taking care of you
I read the words you bled out on the pages
And I long to hold you
I miss you
And I hate it here
I think about how you would set the idiots in there place
And I wonder if your family is well
Did you know?
Did you know I loved you?
That's why I could never take a hint
That's why I always stayed
You a were a replacement
Yet you cut me so much deeper then she ever did
Made me so much stronger
I hope I never see you again
I long to speak to you again
After all,
The more fucked up they are
The harder I fall for them
