thank you

^30^

Dear Hoseok,

You're not the only reason that I'm taking this step but you're a big part of the problem I had and you could've easily been the solution...

My brother was the only person I had left and when he passed away I was beyond depressed. I quit going to university and my job and I was a total wreck. I was left with a lot of debt and the weighty feeling of loss after his funeral but you helped me. You promised it would get better. You made it better. Everything was getting at the peak of perfect when I met your friends and soon enough we were like family.

I thought that sense of familiarity was the best; a medicinal drug that kept me going; my life support, something I wanted to have since I was born!

...

I didn't know that having a family came with such burdens- I was well aware that they came with a path of plights that you need to overcome, I'm aware of that course...

I just didn't know that it'd force me to take this step...

You're friends, they were great fun, funny and sometimes helpful but we can all undeniably admit that they were the ones that needed help the most. Every single day they all had a problem, and they looked at me like i'm an angel that came to help them-you all pushed your problems to me

Let me cut the crap

you made my life hell

You didn't give me enough time to deal with my own problems and dragged me to every bar in the world

and you made me feel guilty, saying that I watched them die:

Jungkook

Taehyung

Jin

and now me

Yeseul