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not enough ㅡ ahn hyungseob

ahn hyungseob

"hyungseob-ssi? you're next." pd nim tapped me on the shoulder, just when i was about to drift to sleep.

"do you need to touch up your make up?" pd nim asked. i was taken aback from the question. "i-i'm sorry if that sounded a little rude, but considering your image right now, i think it would be a bad idea to show the fans an image of you being... soulless." hyungseob got the message she was trying to say, and he didn't want to receive more hate, so he nodded.

"sunbae, stand by!" pd nim said to the camera man that would be filming me later.
"ms. jeon, please touch up trainee ahn hyungseob!" she called the main make up artist. she looked at me and smiled.

she grabbed her make up and brushes and proceeded to make myself look more presentable. "i have always admire how smooth your skin is, hyungseob-ssi." she said, while she was patting the cushion with foundation on my face.

"you don't have to call me with a ssi, y/n." i laughed at my friend being formal. yes, she's one of the main make up artists here; i suggested her to join and luckily, she did.

"yeah, but sunbae is watching, so you know the drill." she grabbed a lip balm and a lip tint. "what do you like more? a tinted lip balm or a straight up lip tint?"

"a tinted lip balm would be nicer." i said, as she smiled. "we really have the same preferences." she said, as she applied the lip balm on the center of my lips, and patted it around my lips for the gradient effect.

"you're done, break a leg, hyungseob." she smiled. as i was standing up, she leaned near my ear. "we need to talk later. i'll be waiting on the cafe. vip area at the very back. i'll wait."

hyungseob nodded, as the pd nim looked around for him.

"ahn hyungseob?" pd nim said, as i raised my hand. "you're next."

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after the interview, i immediately went inside the cafe, and saw y/n waving at me.

"hyungseob!" she smiled widely. i smiled a bit, and unconciously yawned; it was 2 am.

"sorry that you had to meet me, you're supposed to be sleeping right now." she pouted, and gave me a drink. "french vanilla; our favorite."

i smiled and took the coffe from her hand, and took a sip. "so, what's the reason why you wanted to talk to me?"

she held my hand. "i know you're not okay, hyungseob." after she said those words, i squeezed her hand; a signal of reassurance.

"of course i'm not, but i can handle it; i'm a trainee, i should have a strong mentality." i smiled slightly. but, an ironic situation happened.

a tear ran down my face.

"i knew it." she stood up, still grabbing my hand; and made me stand up. she slowly leaned near me for a hug, as i thankfully, hugged her first and cried on her embrace.

"i-i don't know what to do, y/n. i feel like, i'm not enough. i'm showing my full potential but people thought of me as a greedy person and that i was too selfish. also, that i have no talent nor looks; my voice is trash, my body is no near a girl's liking, i act childishlyㅡ" she made me stop talking and sobbing when she placed her hand onto my lips.

"shh, you know that when you talk about your problems while crying will make my heart drop, right?" she removed her hand from my lips. when i took a look from her face, her eyes were red and puffy.

"w-why are you crying?" i said, then i pulled her in for a hug.

"i-i feel very bad for you, hyungseob." she hugged me tighter, gripping on my shirt. "i'm sorry that i couldn't help you or protect you from the hates you're receiving, but you do know that someone loves you, likes you, appreciates you, acknowledges you, and more, right?" i broke the hug, and nodded.

"you're enough, hyungseob. you're perfect, you don't need to change youraelf for the hates to stop. keep going; continue what you're doing; as long as you think it's right. i'm always here to support you, hyungseob; whether you debut or not."