Bottom buddies || k.nj x bts

don't tell! (it's too late)

Ship: k.nj x bts
genre: fluff

summary: with the next comeback being months away, their leader namjoon gets stressed and worked up, slipping into little space. it's been going on for months, and apparently hiding the fact that your a little might be the hardest thing that namjoon has hidden for his entire life...

little space: Littlespace is a mindset in which an relaxes into a state of carefree, responsibility-free safety. It may be a developed time in which an adult relives childhood memories, scenarios, or desires that were unachievable in their adolescence.

-the use of 'daddy' to refer to caregiver(s)
-petnames
-mention of past depression/suicidal thoughts (like beginning and vv hard to notice)
-sWeARinG
-little!namjoon (i live for this wwdind)

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hiding things from other members is one of the easiest things the leader of BTS can do, from keeping secrets about each other to when the moments namjoon would depreciate himself, lowering his self esteem (although he's still stuck in that phase, he's been slowly going pass that) the members would have no idea what's going on with their leader.

but this, was a whole different matter...

it all started when namjoon had been working at his studio non stop, with their comeback being months away, he's only been out of the studio when he needs to eat (ramen and cup noodles) and go to dance practice, he's so worked up he barely spends time inside the dorm with the other members. when he does, he greets them sleeps for 3 hours and goes back out to work on the songs.

while he was working on the beats of the song, he let out a frustrated sigh and pushed back his chair and pulled his hair out of stress. he was tired but he needed to submit the draft of their songs 2 days from now, he can't afford to waste any time now.

when namjoon opened his eyes again, the male felt strange. all the stress and tired he felt 2 minutes ago was completely washed away. he looked around and could see the countless of plushies and pillows he saw around his studio (since he sleeps there sometimes too).

an idea suddenly popped on his head, he grabbed each pillow and plushies and started to build a fort he let out a childish giggle as he saw the small for he did. but as his nickname 'God of Destruction' says when he placed the last stuff toy on the fort, it instantly went crumbling down.

he frowned and threw the plushie he was holding across the room "i...bwroke it" he mumbled then started to tear up, he stomped his feat and wailed his arms throwing a silent tantrum .

"Da-!" he almost shouted, he looked around and realized there was no one here his eyes soften he stopped wailing his arms. he rubbed his tears away and looked around to see the mess he created with the pillows and plushies around the studio. he started to pick it up one by one placing it back to where he saw it. 

'what was that?' the youngest rapper sighed as he placed the last pillow on the couch, after doing so he instantly went online and typed in what happened to me. he scrolled around the internet and a certain word caught his eye.

'little space'

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so here he was, after finding out he was a little, it didn't bother him much because he realized that there were people around youtube and tumblr who are as well littles.

he learned a lot to say, what to do, what to have and the basics. when he learned about the idea calling his caregiver 'daddy' or 'mommy' made him blush lightly. he bought a yellow onesies and a yellow pacifier, coloring books and crayons the basics so when he falls into little again, he'll be able to handle himself.