you ever love someone so dearly, but you don't want a relationship with them?
and i'm not talking about that girl to girl "you're just like a sister!"
no.
i have this guy friend, and i do love him. i care about him a lot, he makes me happy and gives good advice to help me.
but i'm not IN love with him. and to protect his beautiful name, we'll call him jace. lemme just give you a hint of what he looks like..
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ain't he pretty? oh btw he's british, from england. sigh. super beautiful. :)
so let me give you the whole story, how we met n' that shit.
so many months ago one of my very good friends (we'll name her emma to protect her name) had gone down to see her dad and step-mom in oregon. and one day she decided to go shopping at a generic store, and met this guy. jace. he bagged her items and so he asked her out on a date.
they went on that date. and it was successful. so they they started dating.
and ya know, me being the protective friend i am, wanted to make sure that he wouldn't hurt her n' stuff like that.
so i had one conversation with him late at night and i immediately liked him (in the friend way). so we became friends, and just always got along.
emma and him (almost) always hung out together, so that meant i talked to him more often. :) and like, emma has friends down there so even if she didn't meet him, she'd still have them, i think..or it's that those friends came from jace...yeah, i think that was it! xD anyways..
he didn't have his own phone (which i thought was a little weird since he worked *shrug*) so he always texted me from emma's phone whenever he had it. so i was pretty okay with what was happening. and everytime emma would call me, he would leave, almost like he didn't even want to talk to me. which i thought was kinda sad. and so with him not talking to me over a phone call, that gave me the thought, "is jace even real?" so that question was always on my mind whenever that happened.
he got closer to me, i got closer to him, we got a little more friendly than we should've been.
he lost his job 'cause he constantly was texting me during his work hours.
and this is where everything got worse. i have the text from emma. i won't write it all, but i'll give you the basic jist.
saturday 11:31 am
her: you're prolly asleep still.. but i figured you should know. me and jace broke up, since his parents are making him go to boarding school back in england. he leaves next week.
