Chapter 1 : I tell my love to wreck it all
I tried to swallow and understand what was happening but I know i still wont understand. I tried my best not to cry but every word that comes out from his mouth urges me to bawl in disbelief and great pain.
I dont want to hear any of this now, I wasnt ready for this. And never will I. The nerves in my stomach started to twist like crazy and all my muscles are tensed. It seems like I was so exhausted and weak that all I could do was to sit down and listen to everything that he wants me to hear. And it sucks!
The silence made it even more harder for me to absorb things up, knowing that whenever he keeps his mouth shut, he's probably thinking... thinking of the best way to end this i bet.
And I wasn't even wrong. After a long moment of uncomfortable silence, he finally spoke up.
"Beth" He said. He glanced at me before continuing. "Just let me go".
Those words came echoing across the entire Ampi theatre and it keeps repeating in my ear. He wanted me to let him go? Just like that? Thats It?
He was waiting for my reaction but then my face stayed straight. I hope he could see how i'm dying inside and how i wanted to scream at him for being stupid and a**hole.
Knowing I wouldn't say a word, he took my hands and cupped it in his face. My hands covered his eyes and central portion of his beautiful face.
"If you love me, you've gotta let me go" he said under my now-cold-hands. Desperation became visible in his voice and all i could do was to ease the tears from my eyes. I dont want to cry. Not infront of him or anybody else.
And there was silence again. I felt the need to speak up and tell him how i dont want to end our relationship and all but when my hands were filled with his tears -- which i dont understand why-- I took my hands gently away from his face and pulled him into a hug.
"What do you want me to do now, Greg?" I whisphered softly under his neck. It was actually a clever decision to hug him so that i could hide and contain every tears that was about to explode.
"Just---just dont hurt yourself after this." he said. He pulled away and locked his gaze on me before he continued. "And.. I dont want to hear that it was me who broke up or it was you who initiate this. I want them to know that it was both of us who decided to do this. "
Surprised by what he said i caught myself speechless and powerless against it. Thank God we weren't standing because if we were, i probably lost my balance out of my weak and shaking knees.
I gathered all the strength that i could possibly have in my body and managed to give him a nod. I nodded slowly at him contemplating whether it was really what i want or just wanted to give him the freedom that he desperately need.
After that many things and events happened between us both. Rumors and gossips about our breakup became viral in our school. And it's kinda awkward.
"OMG! i heard Greg and Beth totally wrecked it! It's actually a good thing that He finally gave closure on their relationship. Like, duh.. he doesn't even love her, right? " the girl on the other table said to the girl beside her.
"Well, we'll never know maybe Greg likes girls like me who knows how to make him weak on his knees. " a blonde girl answered and giggled like someones pouring cold gravy on her.
Its kinda disgusting listening to this kind of crap but the fact that me and my girlfriends were sitting beside their table in the cafeteria makes it audible for us to hear.
