True feelings

The day

... I like you a lot and have since w first started hanging out and couldn't do anything because of ... but i realize it was a mistake cause i missed out on a great guy and ... is so freaking lucky to have you and so that's why i'm gonna distance myself  cause i don't think i can handle it. Your my best friend and i used to think that it was bad cause i fell for my best friend an it's clique and i had to ask ... several times if i should tell you about my true feelings  and than i saw this quote and it made me realize that maybe i should. the worst that could happen is you saying no. I'm sorry ... for getting  mad at you at the beginning  when you liked me cause i never gave you a chance and then you grew on me and became best friends. I don't want this to change how we hang out or talk cause i cant loose you, you know me way to much to leave. i know i say sorry to much but i'm sorry for this i just think i wouldn't be able to tell you this in person cause i couldn't bare seeing the look on your face when i told you cause i'm terrified of rejection and being alone. when people leave it makes me feel as if i'm not good enough and half the time i'm not at least i don't think i am but you make me feel as if i do belong here even with my problems and you stayed by my side  and made a promise, that no matter what you'd always be there for me and i'm so glad your finally happy with ... I know you truly like  and i hope she doesn't screw up her chances with you. All i truly want is for you to be happy and i know your happy with her. I understand if you don't want to talk r hang out anymore bu ti just hope you keep your promise. i truly am sorry ...

That text ruined me because that day I lost the person that made me feel worth being alive and he didn't even know how much he broke me. Some may think that I was and idiot for doing this but it needed to be done cause I couldn't take the pain anymore of when he would talk about ... to me and not realizing how much it was hurting me.