I loved her but was in love with her .
I told her lies that she fell in love with and showed her what this love could be if it was me and her.
whyle showing her all the love I wanted to give her because she was mine.
but she don't understand how the hours I spend with her are cherished gratefully. so many feelings in such a short amount of time.
she comes home to my love everyday knowing its hers and feel as if there's nothing to worry about . I fuck her and make love to her .
I don't hold back with her because she's wild.
I touch her gently because I own her body with pride
two different girls .
I'm living two different lives.
one truth one lie .
but the truth hurts and I don't know why.
the lie comforts me because she sees the pain and guilt were both creating .
but she don't wanna stop she loves what I offer .
as I hold her I don't feel like myself I guess that's why I accept.
receiving text from her whyle I crept.
but this confusion must end its tearing me apart.
my love for her is like a shark its sharp.
but my love for her is so sweet I never want it to go tart.
fighting with myself I was confused
whyle the devil on my shoulders laughs .
I find myself holding on to my better half .
* note this poem is wrote based on past events that happened in 2012*.
