Nerd's Personal Heaven

Chapter 5

Well, I've never had such an awkward conversation like that before in my life.

"Hi er...Hunter, what are you doing here?" I blurted out.

God, that's got to be one of the stupidest things I've ever said in my life, and I've said a lot of stupid things in my life so that's a shocker. It was obvious he works here and now he probably thinks I'm an idiot or something. He answered my question in one simple eyebrow raise. 

It's official, I am the most idiotic word vomit-y person ever. 

"Hmm... Oh I don't know, I work here." He answered might I add sarcastically. 

Well, I got to admit, I deserved that. Stuttering like an idiot is not going to get me anywhere so I decided to make small talk, after I ordered  a coffee, I gotta keep my caffeine levels high otherwise I'm going to be a walking vegetable. 

I'm not joking as well. The conversation was going nowhere since all I was doing was firing questions at him while he just replied in a one word answer. It must be a skill I tell you, I can't answer a question without blabbering on. 

When my coffee was done I just sat on one of the chairs while secretly giving Hunter looks over my book, he is one mystery first he's all rude and sarcastic then all cute and nice; if you count saying thank you to me and giving me smile cute and nice. He didn't seem to notice that I was giving him looks so I just full on stared. I think the customers were a uncomfortable since they were giving me very odd looking glances.

Hey it's not my fault that he was hot, even through all the grumpiness in him, he was quite attractive.

What really surprised me was that one of the customers actually went up to Hunter and asked him why that creepy looking girl was staring at him like a stalker. Hey it's not my fault they were concerning over the fact that I was staring at him like a piece of meat. 

My mind can be really weird some times, actually all the time. I got so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice Hunter walking straight up to me and asked if I was alright, which I replied in a very witty comeback asking why he was asking me.

He seemed very confused since he said that a customer had told him I was giving him looks, which I just grinned and told him, 'who told you that?'

He seemed very bewildered, could he tell that I was joking around and that I actually was staring at him? Gosh people these days, especially those who don't know the difference from seriousness and sarcasm.

"What you're seriously hot? Don't mind me staring" I answered.

He seemed shocked that I was so blunt, he's just gotta get use to it, I guess. All my close friends and family know that if they have a booger poking out or food between their teeth I would point it out loud in public.

"I'm just going to ignore that," he replied and abruptly spun around and continued to work. 

After I finished my coffee, I explored the place, it was a hugmongous place! Even though the outside looked kind of small, when you're acutally inside, it's massive!

Rows upon rows or books were placed onto gigantic bookshelves, I could tell I would be spending a lot of time here, nestled onto one of the chairs with some coffee or tea and reading one of the books.

Going up to one of the table I sat in the chair and continued to finish off the last chapter of my book. When I finished it off, I stood up in my chair and explored the massive library. Remebering the different genres that were there. This library seemed to have everything.

From sci-fi to romance to horror/thriller to adventure. I could live in this cafe/library. It has all I need anyway. A cafe to eat and drink, toilets, who could forget that, books to learn and entertain myself and a nice homey shelter from the rain and snow. I loved this place already and it has been what, more than an hour?

I should really recomend this place to my friends, oh wait I have none...oh well! I'm in a really good mood today, nothing can stop me from this feeling.

Not even the man himself Aiden. 

Enough about him though, I flicked through as many books as I could trying the marathon the entire series of twilight while at the same time eating my cake that I ordered off Hunter a few mintues ago. 

It didn't seem to work though, since after I was done with eclipse I heared a very, might I add loud chuckle from behind. It was getting really iritating since I couldn't even imagine what's happening since all I could hear was that laugh. I re-read the paragraph 9 times already.

Spining around I was planing on fliping them off with my very useful finger but instead I found Hunter sitting the table behind me reading a joke book. 

Wait what? Who reads joke books anymore? I could help the giggle that came out of me. His green eyed star made me flinch for a second for I thought he was going to flip me off like I was going to. He seemed to not see me even though I was right in front of him. Strange. 

When he went back to his book, he didn't make a sound which was quite odd. Shruging it off, I contintued to be in my twilight zone, blocking the quiete chatter that started up near the front with a couple of girls from our school.

They were looking at me and I think I could tell what it was about since I probably had chocolate icing and crumbs smeared all across my face. 

What? I'm a messy eater. 

I couldn't help but feel a little self concious of myself since they were anaslying me like I was some forien creature. 

Everyone gets a little messy sometimes stop staring, but obviously they didn't hear my thoughts. When it got really annoying I got up to clean my face off, they seemed to pout like they lost their show of entertainment, I guess I was to them though.

It just brought back bitter memories my my past, those sneering girls as they told me I was a weak pathetic girl. I guess they were correct I am weak and pethetic. 

No I shouldn't think like that anymore right? I'll just be sent off to my therapist again. I really don't want their sympathetic, pitying faces, when really, they don't feel sorry, they don't even a little of what I felt. I bet you know they had perfect lives, with their perfect friends and their perfect parents that noticed everything.

While other people like me don't have that some may have abusive parents or boyfriends, some might have been raped. Many may just be orphans and many homeless.

They know how I felt like. 

They know how I feel now.

I guess the negative thoughts won't ever stop, they'll always be there haunting my very mind, till the end of time...

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I should just call it VCF shouldn't I? XD!