I’ve done tons of shows before so why was I so nervous? Thoughts of forgetting words, forgetting dance moves & something going wrong flooded my mind. The feeling of just bursting into tears because I was nervous, scared, excited & so blessed took over. There was a soft knock on my dressing room door,
“Selena?”
That voice melted my heart.
“Babe are you in there?”
Swallowing the lump of emotion in my throat I responded, “Yeah, come in.” I turned back to the mirror & picked up my blush brush & started touching up my face. I looked down to dab the brush in the color of blush I wanted when I felt him move my hair to one side. He leaned down & softly kissed my neck then whispering,
“Hello gorgeous.”
I looked up & our eyes met in the mirror, one look in my eyes & he knew something was wrong.
“Babe what’s wrong?”
“Nothing just letting the nerves get to me.”
He grabbed my hand pulling me outta the chair then spinning me around like a ballerina & for that second I forgot that I was Selena Gomez & I was dating Justin Bieber the superstar. For that moment it was just Selena & Justin two teenagers living their dreams. Spinning into him & putting my hands on his chest Justin leans down & softly presses his lips to mine. A smile creeps onto my face & Justin feels it & starts laughing, pulling me into a hug.
“God I love you so much Sel”
“I love you too babe.”
We detached ourselves from each other & I went back to touching up my makeup.
“There is no need to be nervous, just sing your heart out & shake your cute ass.”
Justin said laughing while shaking his hips over to the mini fridge pulling out a water bottle then plopping himself down on the couch.
I finished touching up my face & I walked over to the couch where Justin was playing some game on his phone. As I got closer he put the phone down & patted the cushion next to him for me to sit down. I sat down & I leaned into his side resting my head on his shoulder. He kissed the top of my head just as my mom, Mandy & step dad Brian walked into the room. My mom started talking a mile a minute about things I needed to do before I went on stage in a bit.
“& We need to make sure that your ears are hooked up & ready.”
“Mom everything is taken care of, you know this! Stop stressing & just relax until its time for me to go on stage!”
As I said this I kicked my feet up on the couch & laid my head on Justin’s lap. My mom looked at me & laughed
“Alright ill stop freaking out & just chill.” When she said “Chill” she did the quote thing with her fingers. Everyone laughed & we just started talking about how fun the tour was going to be!
I looked at the clock on the wall & we had fifteen minutes until Christina went on stage, I needed to get everyone in one place & thank everyone. I jumped up from the couch telling Justin & my parents to find everyone & meet me in the hall just outside the stage entrance. After I found Christina we headed to the hall, there Justin was waiting with Kenny, Sean & some of Sean friends. Justin walked up to me grabbed my hand & everyone on the team got into a big huddle. I told everyone how proud & thankful I was for them & then we were going to do a chant.
As we were all putting our hands in the center Justin slowly stepped back. We did the chant but I felt bad Justin didn’t get in on it. I know he had told me when he first arrived at my hotel that morning that he was going to keep his distance because it was my tour & he wasn’t part of the team. That is where he was wrong; he is apart of my team. He is part of my support system & I wanted to include him in everything. Him being Justin Bieber the superstar didn’t always allow him to be at everything he or I wanted him to be at. But we worked around it & he was there for me when he could & I was there for him when I could.
All Star Weekend was just finishing up their set & I was beginning to feel the nerves creep up again, at that exact moment I felt arms wrap around my waist & lips get really close to my ear sending goose bumps all down my spine.
“Your going to rock it out there baby.”
“Thanks babe I hope so.”
“Just know that I love you & ill be on the side of the stage cheering you on!”
My heart skips a beat when he tells me he loves me.
“I love you to baby.”
He gives me a quick kiss & he rushes off to the other side of the stage.
Just as I’m walking back to the lift where I will be making my entrance Cameron walks up & wraps his arm around me & rubs my shoulder many times, too many times. I look over his shoulder trying to see if I can see someone to talk to so I can get out of his grip. I pull away just as he speaks,
“Good luck tonight Sel, you will kill it & you look beautiful as always.”
He was sweet & a great friend but my fans knew & I knew his little secret.
“Thanks Cam you guys did great, well I got to go on stage now, bye.”
I rushed off to the lift, the music was beginning to play I jumped on the lift, just remembering the hair thing on my wrist, taking it off & handing it to Ashley, I stand up tall & the lift begins to rise. The moment I saw all of my fans screaming & jumping up & down my nerves went flying away just as I sang the first word.
