Part 4
Selena’s POV
“Selena baby no!” Justin’s voice cried out as he dropped to his knees, next to me covering his face. I lifted my head looking at him & placing my hand on his shoulder,
“Justin?” I said still confused to see him.
He lifted his head, “Selena?” he said confused.
“What are you doing here?” I said slipping my hand into his.
“I wanted… Wait what are you doing!” he said looking me up & down.
“the note, the pills…. Selena you were… Oh god.” Justin stuttered his words putting the pieces together.
“No, no no.” I said as Justin pulled me into his embrace.
“Why were you going to do that, why didn’t you talk to me, what’s going on?” Justin stumbled over his words.
“Justin I didn’t do it! I realized it was stupid just forget it.” I interrupted his rambling.
He pulled away from me to look me in the eye,
“But you thought about it, that’s whats been on your mind these past few weeks huh?”
I looked down ashamed, “Yeah but everything is okay now.”
“How do I know that , what if you are keeping it to yourself like you did.”
“Trust me.” I whispered leaning back down into him.
I felt him want to argue but give into me & burring his face in my hair.
“I’m sorry.” Justin quietly cried.
I pulled away looking at him, “What for?”
“Running away when you needed Me.” he said his voice sad.
I reached up & cupped his cheek, “I pushed you away, it wasn’t you.”
Justin’s eyes filled with tears, he blinked sending them streaming down his face. His tears causing my own to spill down my cheeks.
“I could have helped.” He cried
“I don’t think anyone could help me but myself.” I said thru my sobs.
Justin & I just sat there on the bathroom floor my head in his lap his hand running thru my hair & both of us a complete mess.
Justin’s POV
I don’t know how long I sat on the floor with Selena but eventually I feel her breathing slow & I leaned forward to see that she had fallen asleep. I ran my finger down her jawline admiring her beauty & then the horrible thought that I almost lost her tonight snuck into my head. A fresh wave of tears sprung to my eyes, I leaned my head back against the wall & trying to get myself together. What do I do, what are you suppose to do when something like this happens? Do I need to tell her parents? Does she have to go see someone about it? Questions like these filled my head as I tried to figure out my next move. As I was coming to the decision of calling Selena’s parents Selena rolled over in my lap her face now just an inch from my stomach. I looked down at her just as her brown eyes fluttered open, she looked up at me thru tear stricken eyes & attempted a sweet smile. I smiled back rubbing my thumb against her cheek. No words were exchanged we just knew what the other was thinking. She sat up letting me stand & I reached down taking her hands helping her up. As I opened the bathroom door I glanced into the mirror seeing Selena looking at the open bottle of pills. I looked back at her & without taking her eyes off of the bottle she whispered,
“They almost won”
I reached over with my free hand & touched her chin making her look me in the eyes,
“But they didn’t, & they wont every get that close to winning again.”
She shook her head closing her eyes & was about to say something but stopped herself. I pretended I didn’t notice the internal struggle & lead her to her bed. She sat on the edge of the bed & I leaned down & kissed her cheek before going over to her dresser & getting her some Pajamas. I tried the top drawer & the second only finding bras & underwear, I heard a small giggle come from behind me,
“Why are you laughing?” I smirked
“They’re in the closet.” She laughed tiredly
I sighed & smiled at her going over to her closet grabbing some sweatpants & a tee shirt. I walked back over handing her the cloths, I removed my own shoes as Selena changed her pants, she took off her shirt & was about to put on the one I gave her but stopped when she noticed I was taking off my shirt.
“Can I wear yours.” She whispered so quietly I had to ask for her to repeat it. I handed her my shirt with a smile, she slipped it over her head & I reached forward pulling her close to me,
“I love you.” I said looking deep into her eyes.
She stared back & I could see she wanted to tell me something, I was about to ask her what she was thinking when she breathed,
“Still?”
The single word phrased as a question hit me hard; I pulled her closer to me,
“Always” I said confidently.
