Me and Jake were sitting at starbucks talking about random things and having a good time." Is it crazy that I'm still hungry" I said." You just had 3 bagels and a cup of coffee . We both started laughing and ordered more food. I liked that Jake didn't judge me for how much I eat or what I do and what I like. After we was done eating it started to get a little dark outside. We was there at starbucks for hours that we lost track of time." Wanna go to the carnival tonight" he asked me." Of course" I said smiling. We were on our way and he reached out for my hand I grabbed it and we walked and I felt so much weight lifted off my shoulder from all the pain and sadness I felt." Thank you" I said."For what" he said with a confused look." For being there for me and not judging me and listening to me when you don't have to." I said looking down."That's what friends are for and I'm not going nowhere because I care about you like your my own sister." he said smiling. I smiled back and we kept walking until we got to the carnival. Jake wanted to go on the ferris wheel so we got on. When we got to the top it stopped. We started laughing and he leaned in and I leaned in to and we kissed. we pulled away." I thought it's incest when you kiss your sisters" I said laughing. he laughed to. After the ride was over he won me a huge teddy bear and we started to walk home." That teddy bear is as tall as you" he said laughing so hard. We both laughed for a good 10 minutes until we got to my house. I then wrapped my arms around him and gave him a hug and he hugged me back tighter." Is it okay if I kiss you at least one more time and I promise I won't kiss you again unless you want me to" he said winking."Yes" I leaned up on my tippy toes and kissed him. He smiled and walked back to his house. I got inside and went to my room and started thinking. I am in love with Luke why am I doing this?. I've made up my mind I forgive Luke and I really love him even though Jake is a nice guy Luke is the one I really want so I'm going to man up and face my fear and tell him I love him. I stopped thinking and I drifted into a sleep.
