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Little Kyungsoo

Do kyungsoo was born on the 12th of January 1993  to Admiral Do and Mrs Do, he was a chubby little baby with wide wide round eyes and midnight raven hair. While other babies wouldt protest in loud wails after being forced into the sunlight, Do Kyungsoo blinked open his eyes and took in his surroundings in absolute quiet.

Neither did he yell nor did he fuss, he just quietly took the gentle proddings of the doctor's fingers in utter calmness. After pronounced completely fine, swaddled in the finest linens Do Kyungsoo was taken home by his parents.

The Dos were a rich bunch, they lacked for nothing so it was only normal that Kyungsoo grew up in the lap of luxury itself, he wore the finest clothes, had the latest toys and would seat in between his parents every sunday in the back seat of their sleek Mercedes as Mr Song the butler drove them all to sunday mass. To the community the Dos were the ideal family afterall Mr Do is a respected  retired Admiral of the fleet with a broad well built stature while Mrs Do is a beautiful dainty woman with wide eyes like her son, kind, soft spoken, always ready and willing to help others.

What Kyungsoo loves best about his mother is her soft brown hair that has a streak of silver running down its middle, he would always stare at it in the mirror whenever his mother would brush his hair into its permanent bowl cut style. How kyungsoo loves his mother, and would always wonder if his father loves his mother as much as he does. Afterall if you love someone, you should never hit them or shout at them or hurt them right?

Little Kyungsoo is confused.

You see the reason little Kyungsoo is confused is because while his father is the absolute definition  of an angel to the rest of the world, he was an absolute demon at home. He would often drink a lot of the gold liquid he always had perched atop his office desk. After drinking, he would then go on to hit kyungsoo's mother over the head after one of their numerous loud arguments. Whenever Kyungsoo tries to protect his mother with his frail and tiny frame, he would often get flung to the other side of the room like a ragdoll and if his mother tries to stop his father from raining down more blows on his tiny body, she would get threatened with that black device his father always kept in the third drawer of his desk.

As a result of this little Kyungsoo has come to really dislike loud noises and would choose to wander away from the house to Mr Jung the gardener's hut where they would often play games he could tell no one about. By the time Kyungsoo clocked five, he had learnt to always stay quiet at home lest he triggers one of his father's tantrums whenever he takes his 'anger potion'. He also learnt how to keep himself company because as the only child in a vast estate, there was no one his age to play with and besides he  got to visit the neighbourhood playground on special occasions when his mother was able to cover up Admiral Do's marks on her face.

Being kept indoors all day had therefore taught Kyungsoo how to explore the corners of his mind, to weave as many realities as his imaginations could. He loves the control he could exercise over his thoughts and the reality around him. To him the ability of the mind to conjure up infinite dreams is God's greatest gift to mankind and he would siently disagree with Father Joon's sermons on the  gifts of nature.

At age seven,Kyungsoo had grown into a very quiet boy who spoke in few words only when it's absolutely necessary. Another peculiar thing about Kyungsoo was that he never cried, even after being used as his father's relief punching bag. Admiral Do was no longer satisfied with only plummeting his wife with his fists and had decided to add Kyungsoo to the mix because according to Admiral Do, Kyungsoo's entire being was a mistake, from his porcelain skin to his slight figure. The feature he however abhorred the most were Kyungsoo's eyes.

'Get those devil eyes out of my sight, I can't stand the sight of it staring at me like it can see right into the depth of my soul', was Admiral Do's mantra.

Kyungsoo doesn't understand what is wrong with his eyes, he would often stare into the mirror for hours to get a glimpse into his own soul only to be met with a swimming sea of black within the larger ocean of white. He therefore concludes that his father's soul must be devoid of any light, pitch black. A complete contrast to the white he wore both in and outof the home.

Maybe that's why his father detested his eyes, Kyungsoo therefore concludes

He hated white.