Slowly, and then all at once [Jeon Jungkook ff]

Chapter 4: ["You have to relax Jungkook-ah"]

I can't stop overthinking. It hit me this morning what happened yesterday and now I'm too scared to face her. I can't tell if she remembers all of this, but I have a feeling that she does and she's almost as embarrassed as I am. I didn't want to talk about it, so I decided to go to my training right after the Uni. I've been here three hours before the other boys came to train. I haven't talked to Y/N in the morning and I totally ignored her at the Uni. I bet she's angry at me for not coming home. I noticed that she's trying to be friends with me, but it's not gonna work. I'm too awkward.

Suddenly a small but hard ball hit me in the stomach. The pain woke me up from my thoughts. I held the spot where the ball hit me and hissed, feeling my legs give up. I fell on my knees still holding my stomach. The coach jogged in my direction and squatted next to me putting his hand on my back.

"Are you okay, kid?" he asked worried "Do you want to sit on the bench for a little bit?"

I shook my head and tried to get up. The pain was slowly going away, but it was still there.

"What's the matter with you, Jungkook?" the coach asked "You're acting more and more weird every day. What happened to you?"

I sighed giving him the apologetic look.

"You have to get your head in the game again or else I'm gonna have to change our team's captain." he said patting my shoulder.

My eyes got bigger at the man's words.

"No no please! I'll be okay, I promise!" I finally spat out "The school is stressing me out a little, that's all." I lied "But I'll get over it, I swear."

The old man sighed.

"Get your things and go home." he said taking the bat from my hands "The training is over for you today. Go home and relax. I don't care what you do to stop stressing - go drinking with friends, take a bubble bath, masturbate or something..." the man said making my teammates giggle like a bunch of highschoolers "I really don't care what you do, just get your shit together, come back on the next practice day and start playing like a god damn captain of the team."

My heart dropped. This team is the most important thing in my life. I moved away from my family just to play here. This is who I am, I can't be out of the team...

"But coach I..." my attempt to argue myself out of this situation was cut off by the old man.

"You have to relax Jungkook-ah." he said walking away.

The other guys didn't even say a word. They just stared at me. It's so embarrassing... I've always been the golden player, the one who never fails, and now? The coach gave me a talk like I'm a toddler who did something naughty.

I threw my helmet on the ground letting out some of my anger. Then I headed to the locker room to change into my normal clothes and drive home. As I was walking out I ran into one of my teammates who hit my shoulder. I knew he did it on purpose to piss me off even more.

Jaemin always wanted me gone from the team.

"See you on the next practice day. If the coach doesn't kick you out, of course." he sent me a devilish grin making my blood boil as I clenched my teeth trying not to punch him.